Jdw_Icequeen Posted November 28, 2010 Posted November 28, 2010 Well saw eachother for the first time lasnight. He took the bus 7 hours to get here to bring diapers anf formula. My excpectations was things to be very awkward. Him to seem kinda grumpy and anxious to leave and not at all to really talk to me. I was nervous. So when he showed up I acted casual asked him how thanksgiving was and how work was going. Told him I had all his stuff for him. He visited with the baby. While we talked. He seemed in a good mood to my suprise kept smiling seemed a little nervous but minimum. So since he seemed comfortable. I asked the big question. So why did you just decide to leave. Of course he said he was just unhappy and didn't see things changing for the better. I said I really wish you would have talked to me about this earlier so things would have had a chance to be fixed. I said I understand you have been stressed latley but if you would just have communicated with me I would have done anything to to make you happy and try to fix our relationship. I asked what he saw for us int he furture he said I just think were going in diffrent directions. I don't think I can get that loev back for you..I then apologized for leaving him feeling so stressed and not trying harder. I explained to him why I had been stressed and him not communicating unfortunatly made it worse. I then was ready to be a big girl and say it like I saw it. I do love you,I agree with your decision I was starting to think and feel like I needed time on my own aswell. He gave me kind of a funny look. This is how I truly feel though even though I love him. He was with his ex wife 3 yrs and unhappy he says he didnt want to go that long being unhappy. I said yes but I am not your ex wife. So in a little funny voice and not to keep things serious. I said "hmmmm I'm not so sure your not in love with me any more" and I kinda smiled. He kind of looked away and smiled to. I then asked him about a previous request I had made. When I asked if you if you wanted to be friends and still hang out and you said yes were you just saying that or is that somthing you really want? I don't want to bother him to be a friend. So better to know. He says yes I do but just as friends. I gave a light smile and nodded. He blushes alot when he is a bit nervous in a good way. Well he had to get back on the bus. So our visit was short. I was truly shocked when he reached out for me and says give me a hug. It was a good love hug. As he pulled away he looked at me I had the feeling he wanted to kiss me. So I quickly looked away. If there is ever any chance in the future. Things would have to go very slowly. No jumping into things. He seemed very sincere about everything said. It was a positive meeting. I didn't turn into the pleading begging crying mess I was worried about. I sincerly thanked him for bringing the stuff down and going through all that trouble. He mentioned he would be back for a visit tuesday or wensday. Until then do my best to give him his space and take my time for myself. This thread started on trying to be positive. If your intrested to know more.
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