Groovy85 Posted November 24, 2010 Posted November 24, 2010 Sorry for the vague title but it kinda sums up what I really hope for and seemed as good as any. I've posted here before, same topic, years ago, still here still same topic. I just can't live this way anymore. Apart from bottle it up and have an occasional vent online (anon of course) I've never actually taken any positive action about this, but I really feel like I need to now or it will either kill me or ruin the rest of my life, it's not going to go away on it's own. I have loved the same man for 13 years, love, obsess, adore all that sort of gagmaking stuff. Which would be fine if it wasn't for the fact we broke up 8 years ago. I have never ever gotten over him in the slightest. It's not something that wanes and brought back by a song or mention of him. I love him and it's never gone away. I've learnt to live with it, it's like an amputated limb that aches but I've grown to cope with. I married to forget him, I had a child to forget him, I had another child to forget him...I'm a good wife, an excellent mother, I have everything I ever wanted apart from him. Of course in retrospect as much as I could never wish my children away I should never have married or had them, at least then I wouldn't be involving them in this, But I was young and thought the love of them and time would heal old wounds. So instead of love them and love him and most of the time do ok, I think of him daily but I could cope with it ( mainly because I moved 3000kms away from him to try and cut all ties) I saw him the other week, and it's horrific. I have trouble sleeping, eating, concentrating. Nothing that gives me joy matters any more. I am over this, I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life, I don't want to be 70 and looking back on a full beautiful life and only seeing his absence. I'm not depressed as such but should I see a GP? A counseller?
stopthemadness Posted November 24, 2010 Posted November 24, 2010 Sorry for the vague title but it kinda sums up what I really hope for and seemed as good as any. I've posted here before, same topic, years ago, still here still same topic. I just can't live this way anymore. Apart from bottle it up and have an occasional vent online (anon of course) I've never actually taken any positive action about this, but I really feel like I need to now or it will either kill me or ruin the rest of my life, it's not going to go away on it's own. I have loved the same man for 13 years, love, obsess, adore all that sort of gagmaking stuff. Which would be fine if it wasn't for the fact we broke up 8 years ago. I have never ever gotten over him in the slightest. It's not something that wanes and brought back by a song or mention of him. I love him and it's never gone away. I've learnt to live with it, it's like an amputated limb that aches but I've grown to cope with. I married to forget him, I had a child to forget him, I had another child to forget him...I'm a good wife, an excellent mother, I have everything I ever wanted apart from him. Of course in retrospect as much as I could never wish my children away I should never have married or had them, at least then I wouldn't be involving them in this, But I was young and thought the love of them and time would heal old wounds. So instead of love them and love him and most of the time do ok, I think of him daily but I could cope with it ( mainly because I moved 3000kms away from him to try and cut all ties) I saw him the other week, and it's horrific. I have trouble sleeping, eating, concentrating. Nothing that gives me joy matters any more. I am over this, I don't want to be like this for the rest of my life, I don't want to be 70 and looking back on a full beautiful life and only seeing his absence. I'm not depressed as such but should I see a GP? A counseller? Omg! I Loved that movie. I feel your pain Ive been going through something like this for 8+ years. And now I see a therapist!! So I can learn to get past this pain and heart ache. Have you ever thought of seeing a therapist really? Call today, look into it. It may be just what you need. Good luck..We can do this..
Fufu Posted November 24, 2010 Posted November 24, 2010 Do whatever it takes to make yourself feel the best It's a positive statement that you are thinking of seeking counseller..
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