worlybear Posted November 23, 2010 Posted November 23, 2010 Hi. Troughing the bottom today . Can't get images of STBXH playing happy families out of my mind- being a Dad to OW'S daughter and not to his own 9 yr old. He's even got her in his new class. I despise the fact that he has turned his back on his own family. To make it worse, my oldest son has been released on condition that he stays with STBX (plus OW and hed daughter.) I am devastated that son has gone there-it seems so c*****. Where's his loyalty? How can he stay with the pair of them, who contributed to his downfall and eventual imprisonment. I just don't understand it. My other sons have sworn they will never speak to their brother again and I HATE it that our family has been destroyed. I feel very bitter at the moment- I'm recovering from major surgery,(appendix complete with tumour) and have managed to get a teaching job for 2 terms in the New Year- but the divorce is not complete and I feel that I have completely lost my way. I don't think I'll ever have peace of mind,again and I'm so tired mentally and emotionally. I do have some counselling but it doesn't really help. I try to take an interest and help others on this site and elsewhere but I'm finding it very tough to cope with my own life. I have anti-depressants and sleeping tablets but I seem to have hit an all time low. How can I get through this? It seems to me that cheating and lying has given my STBXH a new start and the OW a new father for her kid at the expense of STBX'S own. How can it be right that cheats and liars come out on top? Sorry to whinge but I'm close to driving up to STBX'S new house (in the next county) and confronting the cheating liars and I know rationally this would be useless- but how I would love to tell them all what I think of them. I must've been a really bad person in a previous life.THERE IS NO JUSTICE!
Author worlybear Posted November 23, 2010 Author Posted November 23, 2010 Obviously not. Hell, I'm even boring myself! Sorry everyone.
anne1707 Posted November 23, 2010 Posted November 23, 2010 Worly You know what you have to do now? Picture Chris Evans - but an ugly version - who in their right mind would want that?
skydiveaddict Posted November 24, 2010 Posted November 24, 2010 I have anti-depressants and sleeping tablets but I seem to have hit an all time low. How can I get through this? How can it be right that cheats and liars come out on top? My God, have you ever been through hell! You will get through it though. My shrink told me that when you feel your worst is when you MUST get out of the house and get moving (exercising). I know you feel totally crushed to bits but you will make it. I've been there too, (different circumstances), but you must believe in yourself. You can do it. I would also keep talking to your doc about meds. I know they take time to work, but if this one doesn't help you, there are ones that will. Hang in there.
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