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[LycanBerserker]

I am a 22yr old male and i have been with my wife four year and just got married aug 20th 2010 i have seen that she hasnt been very happy for a while and so i just recently told her that i know that she is not happy with me and that if she wanted to start seeing other ppl that i would approve for now. she was shocked and asked my why would i ask her if she wanted that and i told her that i know she would be happy. i know that was i mess up right there. she has never asked about having a open marriage to me i told her to do it we seen it on a show befor we got married and said we would never do that. she told me that she has a crush on a guy that we just stared working with and she has told him about everything and he asked if i was going to be mature about the whole thing he also said some thing else but we will get to that a bit later.

 

I went for about 1 day and i just couldnt stand the thought of her being with another man or woman. also she is the only one with the opening she cant stand the thought of me being with another woman it brings her to tears. i just want her to be happy and if this is what makes her happy i will have to deal with my fealings. but i cant i dont sleep and my gut hurts so bad i ccant stand it i even drank myself to sleep the other night that i have never done. i just talked to her and told her we can try it for a year and see if it is something that she wants and go from there. we talked about how sick it makes me and how it rips my heart out. i told her that she is the only woman i ever want to be with she is my soul mate i feel so much more that love for her. she said she feels bad and that its not even really aout the sex but at 19 and 2 kids shes feels tiead down and missed out on having fun she just likes the freedom that comes with it and that she loves me and i can tell she really is in love with me. and i asked her so you just want the freedom and if something happens then you dont have to feel bad. she said yea. she has never cheated on me for the record. but she can have the freedom to do what ever other than sex with who ever with out a open relationship. she siad she thinks it just her and that is just a phase she is going through. she said she feels sort of bad but i dont want to take it back and have her feel resentment 2 me. i just dont know what do do i think if it was supposed too be like this we should have got it out of our selfs be for we got married. she also said that she do not regret marring me and that it made her very happy. she sees that her happyness is in my best for the fact of me doing this with out me having the same. aslo her best friend and the guy crush said that im the bigger person for letting her do this to make her happy even if im not getting the same thing. what should i do help me please:sick: