Eternity001 Posted November 22, 2010 Posted November 22, 2010 As the title says, met the ex today for a couple of hours. Just talked about random things happening in our lives. Nothing confronting and no nastiness at all. I still had the desire to be close to her though and afterwards she told me she wanted to hold my hand. Now I just feel empty and crappy though, not sure what's wrong with me really but it doesn't feel good. Having never been friends with her and only knowing her as a partner I guess it's tough to make that transistion even after a year. I guess it's best to stay away from her entirely.
paleblue Posted November 22, 2010 Posted November 22, 2010 Now I just feel empty and crappy though, not sure what's wrong with me really but it doesn't feel good. Having never been friends with her and only knowing her as a partner I guess it's tough to make that transistion even after a year. I guess it's best to stay away from her entirely. That's probably a smart idea. You know you dont really want to be "friends" anyway, so why waste your time with trying to convince yourself you want too. Besides your next gf wont like it very much anyway.
Author Eternity001 Posted November 23, 2010 Author Posted November 23, 2010 (edited) Yeah I guess, now I just feel awful, haven't slept, can't eat, have cried which I never do. Feel like I've just been broken up with. I don't really know why, not sure what it is I'm holding onto. She is exactly the same as when I left her. When she got off the bus I felt nothing. She's got a few new friends and is a bit more active but that's about it. I guess it's the knowing she's moved on, not with nayone but mentally. Despite some of the stuff she's said to me recently. I'm an absolute mess to be honest. Edited November 23, 2010 by Eternity001
Brandi 2 Posted November 23, 2010 Posted November 23, 2010 As the title says, met the ex today for a couple of hours. Just talked about random things happening in our lives. Nothing confronting and no nastiness at all. I still had the desire to be close to her though and afterwards she told me she wanted to hold my hand. Now I just feel empty and crappy though, not sure what's wrong with me really but it doesn't feel good. Having never been friends with her and only knowing her as a partner I guess it's tough to make that transistion even after a year. I guess it's best to stay away from her entirely. I guess you two broke up for a reason, but it sounds like you still have deep feelings for her, lest you would not have met her.
Author Eternity001 Posted November 24, 2010 Author Posted November 24, 2010 I don't know what I'm feeling or why I'm feeling it. I'm sure if I did I wouldn't be in the state that I am now. Like I said I know deep down it probably wouldn't work just like I thought it wouldn't long term when I left. For some reason or another now though I feel utterly awful and lost and the only conclusion I can come up with is that even though she makes all these comments about not being able to love anyone else, would have stayed with me forever, misses me etc that really as mentioned around this website, she probably just wanted to know if I still cared but doesn't actually want to be with me. Just wanted an ego boost or something. I bought into it and now I'm paying for it badly, not sleeping, eating, all the bad bad stuff.
sfranks1492 Posted November 24, 2010 Posted November 24, 2010 It's a shame because it sounds like she only wanted to see you just to make sure you were still there in the event she decided she wanted to be with you - her backup plan. Even after a year she still knew you hadn't moved on. You can't let her see that this is an option. People want what they can't have. If she knows you haven't moved on and are there waiting for her, she is going to continue to string you along even though she knows that is not what she wants. I dated a guy that truly cared for me a couple years back and he was madly in love with me; however, I just didn't feel the same way about him. I would go out with guy after guy and when they would let me down, I always knew he was there waiting to pick me up. However, the moment he went out with another girl to try and move on, I would interfere and bring him back to me just long enough to get him attached again. I know I was wrong and I felt terrible for how I treated him. Sounds to me like she is doing the same. Hope my story helps you.
Author Eternity001 Posted November 24, 2010 Author Posted November 24, 2010 ^^ I know this but she hasn't moved on either from what I can gather, she just doesn't want to be with me as such. I know myself that it wouldn't work like I said. It's not love on my part, I know that, that's why I'm so confused, when i saw her I felt no attraction and the urge to be close to her I believe was just instinct, for her the same. We spent 5 years together as partners after 2 weeks of meeting. We only know each other as that. I think it's just the case of her throwing comments out there to see if I still care and then telling me she doesn't want me back but just wants to be friends. I know she still cares about me, I just hurt her too much, I had my shot. There's just to much emotion to consider friendship, as early as last night she got wind that I wasn't at home at 10:30pm. Proceeded to try and call, sent me a bunch of abusive text messages asking who I was ****ing. It's just a case of not letting go on both parts really. She refuses to let go and realistically doesn't need me in her life at all and I am the same.
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