Guitarjeff Posted November 19, 2010 Posted November 19, 2010 Hope she likes this one. Wrote and recorded last night in about 4 hours. Started this one at 8 PM, finished at midnight, All sitting on my bed. Thanks SoundClick artist: Jeff Stewart - page with MP3 music downloads
hoping2heal Posted November 21, 2010 Posted November 21, 2010 Great voice Jeff! The song was lovely also, you need to get on America's Got Talent!
folieadeux Posted November 21, 2010 Posted November 21, 2010 Another great one Jeff. How's everything been?
Author Guitarjeff Posted November 23, 2010 Author Posted November 23, 2010 Going pretty well I guess. She has been extremely loving the last few days, but I am also feeling like I am afraid something has died in me where she is concerned. What I am trying to say is that I found that I was afraid that I wasn't very afraid at the thought of losing her. I guess 5000 miles of distance takes a toll and I am just maybe starting to have some feelings like all this isn't worth the trouble. I feel like my needs aren't getting fully met and that she is using the distance as a kind of shield. Though I enjoy writing poems and songs for her, I feel like I might be losing motivation to do them and that scares me. I'm just worried that my feelings may be dying a bit, and you can't stop that when it begins to happen to you. I am making an effort because I believe in making an effort to keep love fresh, intense, and close. But when i started feeling like she was losing the will to put in effort, well, it kind of makes me feel like putting in less as well. When i try to imagine the massive struggle it would be to actually move to England, move my daughter, part of me thinks that will simply never happen and it's even silly to waste time trying to arrive at that. I don't know, I almost wish i would have never gotten in to this because it hurts so much to have the one you love actually in your arms. Jeff
folieadeux Posted November 23, 2010 Posted November 23, 2010 Going pretty well I guess. She has been extremely loving the last few days, but I am also feeling like I am afraid something has died in me where she is concerned. What I am trying to say is that I found that I was afraid that I wasn't very afraid at the thought of losing her. I guess 5000 miles of distance takes a toll and I am just maybe starting to have some feelings like all this isn't worth the trouble. I feel like my needs aren't getting fully met and that she is using the distance as a kind of shield. Though I enjoy writing poems and songs for her, I feel like I might be losing motivation to do them and that scares me. I'm just worried that my feelings may be dying a bit, and you can't stop that when it begins to happen to you. I am making an effort because I believe in making an effort to keep love fresh, intense, and close. But when i started feeling like she was losing the will to put in effort, well, it kind of makes me feel like putting in less as well. When i try to imagine the massive struggle it would be to actually move to England, move my daughter, part of me thinks that will simply never happen and it's even silly to waste time trying to arrive at that. I don't know, I almost wish i would have never gotten in to this because it hurts so much to have the one you love actually in your arms. Jeff I can understand where you're coming from. I think it's only natural for you to feel that way when you've been putting forth so much effort for so long. But what you're describing is really two separate issues. If you feel like it's no longer worth it, so be it. But if you feel that you two are strong enough to see this through, then anything is possible. I don't mean to sound cliche, nor trivialize the enormity of what moving abroad with your daughter means, but plenty of people do it quite successfully. The thing that you have to work out first though is if she's really in this with you. If you're unsure about the foundation of your relationship now, then it's not worth stressing yourself over the future. It's like putting the cart before the horse. It's never a waste of time to give your all in a relationship. Even if things don't work out in the end, at least you can never look back and say you didn't give it a fair go. But I fear that you may already have your answer as your needs are not being met in this relationship with how things have been progessing. If you decide to go your separate ways, the distance will have very little to do with it in this case. Just my opinion.
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