ReturnToSender Posted November 15, 2010 Posted November 15, 2010 Okay, Im really down about everything thats happened, and Ive made a solid commitment to go NC. Granted it has only been 2h 15m But Ive been looking at the 28 day of NC thread, and its inspiring....Id like to be able to post in there one day....well, in 28 days would be lovely So I was sitting here thinking of the good things that will come of both being NC and of not being in a relationship with him anymore. If you all have any to share that would be great... Now I dont have to deal with ..being excited over a date with him, that he cancels a hour before because hes tired...has a headache...feels like hes coming down with something...his nose feels runny... ...the deflation when I hear him use the phrase "I promise to..." because it always always always means he wont. ...spending time with someone who spends the majority of their time texting, emailing, or playing sodoku on their phone. ...someone who always seemed to time sex perfectly to end in time for the opening credits of Family Guy. ...being out with friends, and no matter how much fun we are having have to leave by 230a to be on the couch in time to watch Family Guy. ..."Thats what my wife said" jokes ...parting ways after a great time together, knowing it will still be a week or more before we see each other again. ...the really bad lies and excuses ...being sexually frustrated *all the time!!!!!* ...being sexually frustrated *all the time!!!!!* (yeah, had to say that twice) Actually that one annoys me so much I cant think of anything else right now Hah!
Author ReturnToSender Posted November 15, 2010 Author Posted November 15, 2010 You deserve better. Thank you... I really hope so.
Author ReturnToSender Posted November 15, 2010 Author Posted November 15, 2010 Im new, and I started a thread last week about my current situation. Some of the things you mentioned are insane... It makes me wonder why Im going through what Im going through, I WAS NEVER EVEN CLOSE TO THAT BAD TO HER. She was always #1, sex life was good, when I was with her phone was on silent. I could never imagine treating someone the way you describe. Trust me, I know its hard, but you might be lucky that its over. Yeah... the hard part about it is if I were to make a list of Pros, I could literally go on and on, cause there were a lot of genuinely good things about him and our relationship...which is why and how I dealt with the cons...and also why it has been so hard to let go. But its of some comfort that I may I may possibly free myself up to be with someone who shows more interest in me, and places more value on what he has with me...because especially reading through the cons, my ex didnt do either.
cerridwen Posted November 15, 2010 Posted November 15, 2010 Now I don't have to deal with... ...hurting over never receiving compliments ...being sad he didn't put in the effort he once did ...being scared that he was lying about his whereabouts ...finding out he lied to me YET AGAIN about some girl ...wondering if he would ever change ...feeling like I wasn't good enough ...being worried about a future with him and how it meant years and years of paranoia
Author ReturnToSender Posted November 15, 2010 Author Posted November 15, 2010 Oh Cerridwin, you reminded me of more too... Ill also add...finding out he lied to me about some girl...again. ...hearing him ask me if theres something I can do about my stretch marks (cant even barely see them!) ...hearing him say he wishes he could get me my implants before a major social event...and then not taking me.
Author ReturnToSender Posted November 15, 2010 Author Posted November 15, 2010 Reading this stuff makes me emotional and angry, mostly hurt. I dont mean to keep bringing myself in to this, but I did everything for her. Compliments, flowers, cards, hand written notes, poems, never cheated and any girl who made her insecure I treated like **** and cut ties with. Why am I going through this, omg I could say the same on the flip. He has always said and maintains that I did everything perfect. Even up til a couple days ago, told me how lucky he is to have me a part of his life, and how much he loves me. He sure has a weird way of showing it eh?
cerridwen Posted November 15, 2010 Posted November 15, 2010 Oh Cerridwin, you reminded me of more too... Ill also add...finding out he lied to me about some girl...again. ...hearing him ask me if theres something I can do about my stretch marks (cant even barely see them!) ...hearing him say he wishes he could get me my implants before a major social event...and then not taking me. What a jerk. Ugh.
cerridwen Posted November 15, 2010 Posted November 15, 2010 Reading this stuff makes me emotional and angry, mostly hurt. I dont mean to keep bringing myself in to this, but I did everything for her. Compliments, flowers, cards, hand written notes, poems, never cheated and any girl who made her insecure I treated like **** and cut ties with. Why am I going through this, omg A few months ago I was asking myself the same thing: Why is he treating me so crappy when I put him first in everything I did?! Why was he still a cheater when I was so loyal? Then I began to learn it was nothing to do with me. He is seriously troubled and selfish.
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