vanessa1017j Posted November 14, 2010 Posted November 14, 2010 the pain is EPIC- its like a an emptiness in your chest that doesnt go away. I made a huge mistake about a month ago when I agreed to try to work things out. We have been together for 9 years, with a 3 yr old son. the last couple years have been miserable. We fought constantly, I didnt trust him and I couldnt stand all the idiotic s##t he did. I left in august and I was doing GREAT!! The pain I felt then was miniscule comparred to the waves of raging anger, frustration and hurt Im feeling now. I should have never got emotionally attached again. So around 2 months after we broke up, we decided to try again for our son. everything was great for a couple weeks- then he drops the bomb. He has a girl from his work pregnant and she is keeping it. He swears up and down that he didnt mean for this to happen and that he wants to be with me- but it still crushed me. Not only was he so irresponsible that he would just go bang some slut from his work with no condom- but he had also slept with me afterwards, so I could have caught something too. well to make this long story short- i talked to the girl he had pregnant and found out he had slept with her in febuary when we were still together- when i was out of town and they had been carrying on somewhat of a relationship since then. He had also been sleeping with a 50 yr old woman from his work- eww were 30. Why would he even try to get back with me knowing he has all these skeletons in his closet. was it just to hurt me? I cant believe how much damage this has done to my mind, my heart and my pride. I should have just stayed the hell away!! I should have left it all alone and I would be just fine- the ignorance would've been bliss. People that break up and you dont ever have to hear your exs voice or see there face again are DAMN LUCKY. I have to face this bastard for my son for the rest of my life!!! Theres obviously a reason we all broke up- BEST ADVICE- stay the hell away, cope with that pain and move on. The second time around is a earth shattering tsunami of hurt!!! thanks for listening- V
ReturnToSender Posted November 14, 2010 Posted November 14, 2010 God Im so sorry to hear this and whats happened... Really good wakeup call for me too, cause right now I feel nothing. Well, I feel something but still pretty emotionless, that my ex dropped the ball just as we were starting to reconnect. And I think you are right...it is better off leaving the past in the past and not try again. I cant imagine what it would be like if I *had* to see my ex...for the sake of a child or something. Who knows what this guy was thinking...moments like this I really wonder what the whole point was, why do that to someone?
Author vanessa1017j Posted November 14, 2010 Author Posted November 14, 2010 Im glad that I could help someone avoid some pain. I hope everything works out for you.
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