Whipple Posted November 14, 2010 Posted November 14, 2010 Yep. It's Saturday night and I hate my life. Everyone's out having a good time with their significant other. My best friend invited me to go hang out with her and her new boyfriend, but I'm sick of being the third wheel and all of their PDA makes me want to vomit. Needless to say, I opted out. But now I'm home feeling miserable. Around this time years ago, my old boyfriend and I became an official couple. Geez, although I was completely blind to all of his faults that would eventually undermine our relationship, at least I was so so so so happy. I miss that feeling so much and what I would give to experience it again. Once again, I've tried entering the dating scene in the past few weeks and although I went on many dates, I still cannot connect with the guys. As I stated in a thread a few weeks ago, I still just feel so bleh with them. Now I'm beginning to wonder if it's myself that has the problem. All of my other friends who broke up after me are already starting new relationships and I'm still single. I don't understand what's wrong. I really want to be happy again and love and be loved BUT I CANNOT FEEL IT. I've been dating guys who I find physically attractive and who have common interests so it's not like I'm picking up random guys. One would think that I would be feeling something but NO. A couple of nights ago, I went out on a date with a guy who was so friendly, attractive, had similar interests and goals, and I could tell that he was really trying to engage me and get to know me. I really tried to reciprocate. Really, I did. But I left feeling so empty. You know what it feels like? It feels like there used to be a fire burning inside me. That was the love that I had to give to guys. Now it feels like someone poured water on the flame and so now it's gone. Completely gone. I'm so hollow inside and I feel so guilty because who knows how many wonderful guys I'm passing up because I'm empty. I'm so lost. I don't know what's wrong with me.
cerridwen Posted November 14, 2010 Posted November 14, 2010 It's Saturday night and I'm at home fighting feelings of loneliness and anger. Tomorrow will be 2 weeks since we called it off. I wonder if he's working tonight. Or if he's out on the town instead marveling at how good his new found freedom feels. I don't hate my life but I certainly hate that I invested this much for this long. I feel foolish.
stopthemadness Posted November 14, 2010 Posted November 14, 2010 Yep. It's Saturday night and I hate my life. Everyone's out having a good time with their significant other. My best friend invited me to go hang out with her and her new boyfriend, but I'm sick of being the third wheel and all of their PDA makes me want to vomit. Needless to say, I opted out. But now I'm home feeling miserable. Around this time years ago, my old boyfriend and I became an official couple. Geez, although I was completely blind to all of his faults that would eventually undermine our relationship, at least I was so so so so happy. I miss that feeling so much and what I would give to experience it again. Once again, I've tried entering the dating scene in the past few weeks and although I went on many dates, I still cannot connect with the guys. As I stated in a thread a few weeks ago, I still just feel so bleh with them. Now I'm beginning to wonder if it's myself that has the problem. All of my other friends who broke up after me are already starting new relationships and I'm still single. I don't understand what's wrong. I really want to be happy again and love and be loved BUT I CANNOT FEEL IT. I've been dating guys who I find physically attractive and who have common interests so it's not like I'm picking up random guys. One would think that I would be feeling something but NO. A couple of nights ago, I went out on a date with a guy who was so friendly, attractive, had similar interests and goals, and I could tell that he was really trying to engage me and get to know me. I really tried to reciprocate. Really, I did. But I left feeling so empty. You know what it feels like? It feels like there used to be a fire burning inside me. That was the love that I had to give to guys. Now it feels like someone poured water on the flame and so now it's gone. Completely gone. I'm so hollow inside and I feel so guilty because who knows how many wonderful guys I'm passing up because I'm empty. You will love again and feel all those feelings again. Your just not ready yet. Ive been there. I dont think am ready either but am making my self because Am so sick of hurting and if making a new friend is what I have to do, to get over that a--hole then soo be it. If your up to it? try it again. If your not wait a bit then try again.. Good Luck to both of us...
sedgwick Posted November 14, 2010 Posted November 14, 2010 (edited) Man, I'm at 3.5 years post-breakup and I'm home alone on a Saturday night with no interest in dating! I definitely know how you feel; I don't have that flame in me anymore either. At this point I've just kissed it goodbye for what I assume is forever. I'm using the opportunity this particular evening to do a little extra work and make a little extra money. Ah, the joys of working for oneself! Edited November 14, 2010 by sedgwick
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