summerl0vesyou Posted November 13, 2010 Posted November 13, 2010 im having my last convo with my ex... i flipped out and accused him of flirting with someone else and weve been fighting all night. well hes saying it really is over for good and im obsessed and at first earlier he was saying "I loved you then, and i wont see you now cuz i still feel that way" but now its as if hes trying to say he doesnt love me. he wont come right out and say it. IM IN SO MUCH PAIN..i want my mommy. im sorry but seriously my soul feels like its bleeding and idk what to do. this is really it. its really over. were going back to goodbye. to not talking anymore. ive been delusional all this time thinking he still cared. I want to crawl in a hole and die. i feel so awful. i dont even know what to do right now. it hurts so so so bad. why did i fly off the handle? ive been letting my frustration build. but still, i needed to know now that he had no intent of working things out, right? im going to miss him. even though hes such a jerk. it was nice to hear from him and have hope again. im so stupid. SO stupid
LoveTNT Posted November 13, 2010 Posted November 13, 2010 Aaw hun, I know how you feel. Been there over a few times. We need to be strong, we have to. We will grow from this and love again. Stay strong hun. When I say that I don't mean don't cry, let it out... but continue to have faith in your healing... K
Author summerl0vesyou Posted November 13, 2010 Author Posted November 13, 2010 Aaw hun, I know how you feel. Been there over a few times. We need to be strong, we have to. We will grow from this and love again. Stay strong hun. When I say that I don't mean don't cry, let it out... but continue to have faith in your healing... K i have candles and a bath and imlistening to whsikey lullaby and im really drunk byt none of that matters dopes it? he just signed off line we didnt eve say goodbye but its foodbye thi time and i know i was os stupid god im so stupid
Nemicron Posted November 13, 2010 Posted November 13, 2010 He sounds like a real @sshole. I'm sorry that your having to deal with that. I personally dont think that its ok to flirt around when your with someone in a relationship. I think its really disrespectful and then to lie about it also. To me that just shows his lack of respect for you and everything else. And I'm sure it doesnt help when I say you should find someone else that actually isn't going to pull that kind of crap. But seriously, the longer you stick around him or even try to fight to get him back the longer he's gonna keep you up in grief. And that really isn't fair to you at all. Find someone better. ^_^ im having my last convo with my ex... i flipped out and accused him of flirting with someone else and weve been fighting all night. well hes saying it really is over for good and im obsessed and at first earlier he was saying "I loved you then, and i wont see you now cuz i still feel that way" but now its as if hes trying to say he doesnt love me. he wont come right out and say it. IM IN SO MUCH PAIN..i want my mommy. im sorry but seriously my soul feels like its bleeding and idk what to do. this is really it. its really over. were going back to goodbye. to not talking anymore. ive been delusional all this time thinking he still cared. I want to crawl in a hole and die. i feel so awful. i dont even know what to do right now. it hurts so so so bad. why did i fly off the handle? ive been letting my frustration build. but still, i needed to know now that he had no intent of working things out, right? im going to miss him. even though hes such a jerk. it was nice to hear from him and have hope again. im so stupid. SO stupid
Nemicron Posted November 13, 2010 Posted November 13, 2010 And a side note. Dont blame yourself for being vulnerable. Theres no sense in bringing yourself down for someone like that. Thats probably what he wants. So why cater to that? im having my last convo with my ex... i flipped out and accused him of flirting with someone else and weve been fighting all night. well hes saying it really is over for good and im obsessed and at first earlier he was saying "I loved you then, and i wont see you now cuz i still feel that way" but now its as if hes trying to say he doesnt love me. he wont come right out and say it. IM IN SO MUCH PAIN..i want my mommy. im sorry but seriously my soul feels like its bleeding and idk what to do. this is really it. its really over. were going back to goodbye. to not talking anymore. ive been delusional all this time thinking he still cared. I want to crawl in a hole and die. i feel so awful. i dont even know what to do right now. it hurts so so so bad. why did i fly off the handle? ive been letting my frustration build. but still, i needed to know now that he had no intent of working things out, right? im going to miss him. even though hes such a jerk. it was nice to hear from him and have hope again. im so stupid. SO stupid
Author summerl0vesyou Posted November 13, 2010 Author Posted November 13, 2010 And a side note. Dont blame yourself for being vulnerable. Theres no sense in bringing yourself down for someone like that. Thats probably what he wants. So why cater to that? wevbe been broken up a long time but im stupid and thougt sinc eh was talking to me again an said "i loved you and i wot see u now cuz i feel ths same" that he love dme and i cant beluieve i ever belived he said forever cuz hes proven forveer isnt real/ i was too open all these months all these times hes just happy to eb alone
Nemicron Posted November 13, 2010 Posted November 13, 2010 Thats terrible. But that doesn't mean your stupid for holding onto some hope. Try to get some sleep everything will be better tomorrow. And dont be so hard on yourself. If I were you I wouldn't talk to him again. Its just hurting you. wevbe been broken up a long time but im stupid and thougt sinc eh was talking to me again an said "i loved you and i wot see u now cuz i feel ths same" that he love dme and i cant beluieve i ever belived he said forever cuz hes proven forveer isnt real/ i was too open all these months all these times hes just happy to eb alone
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