Just got back...

[aerogurl87]

And I am miserable. I cried the entire all the way from last night when my boyfriend and I were watching a movie together to the moment I took a cab home from the airport. But the trip was good.

 

First my boyfriend surprised me at the airport with a bouquet of calla lillies, which was so sweet. Then he bought me a diamond pendant necklace for my birthday, which I love and plan to wear to our wedding whenever we get married in the future. I went 4x4ing for the first time in my life with my boyfriend and some of his friends, which was fun. We hung out and he got most of the time I was there off work so we got alot of alone time to cuddle, catch up, and other things. This trip just made me realize how great of a guy he is even more and how lucky I really am. It just sucks that it had to end because now I'm spiraling into a gummy bear dependent depression.

[Citizen Erased]

Cheer up sweetie, while there is gummy bears things will be ok. It always sucks at first. Hard. You'll get through it. You have that fantastic man in your life. And us!

 

It made me smile when you said:

 

which I love and plan to wear to our wedding whenever we get married in the future

 

No doubt that will happen. If any two are strong enough to get through everything and have their happy ending, it'll be you guys.

[LittleTiger]

Awww, (((hugs))) Aerogurl.

 

I know that feeling only too well. I made a bit of a fool of myself at the airport last time I left. I was crying so much I couldn't read the departure card to fill it in.

 

I wish I had some words to help but all I can say is focus on the lovely time you just spent together and start to look forward to your next visit.

 

You know you can cope with this because you've done it before. You'll be back into your old routine again pretty soon and I'm sure the depression will start to lift.

 

If it takes a bit longer than you'd like, well there's alway your pals on LS with a shoulder for you to cry on.

[aerogurl87]

Thanks CE and LittleTiger. Yeah I know sooner or later the pain will be gone, but it was much worse this time since we spent almost a month together so I got used to seeing him every morning when I woke up and just being with him. And yeah LittleTiger I made a bit of a fool of myself at the airport also, lol. We went to go grab some coffee (well hot chocolate for me) and I could barely talk the entire time since tears kept flowing from my eyes and onto the table and into my hot cocoa. I just miss him so much and really want this distance to be over.

[LisaLee]

The more visits my boyfriend and I have the more my depression gets worse when I return home. I know the feeling all too well, and while I always love seeing my boyfriend there's a part of me that is real aware we're going to have to say goodbye again.

 

He tells me I should enjoy the moments we have together, but it is hard when in the back of my head I'm thinking of our last day.

 

I hope you get to feeling better soon. (((hugs)))

 

I find what helps me the best is cementing our next trip together asap.

[folieadeux]

Welcome back Aero, we’re here for you!!!!

 

I agree with everyone who said the best thing to do is start planning your next visit. That sometimes is the only thing that keeps me going (short of working myself to death and eating my weight in sweets).

 

Do you guys “take turns” with your visits? Will he be coming Stateside next?

[muneeq]

what a wondeful place to meet people who have been through the same things as me! some stories just make me smile and i ask myself did we date the same guy? lol

To you aerogurl,

the first couple days hurt like hell, all you want to do is crawl in bed and cry. but it will go away. start making plans for you next trip like everybody says, talk about the things you're gonna do or wanna do. even better talk about the great time you just had to relive it. hope you feel better soon

[aerogurl87]

Thanks everyone for the advise and trying to cheer me up.

 

Folieadeux he's never been to visit me so he said he wants to come here to visit and meet my family and friends the next time around, so that will be nice. He also said that the latest we'll see each other again will probably be January since he wants us to start seeing each other every 2 months at the most. Apparently he was going to come down here for a few days before Christmas as a surprise and then have me fly back home with him on Christmas Eve or the day before, but that plan got ruined.

[folieadeux]

I’m sorry your plans got ruined.

 

Every two months sounds like a really nice schedule though if you guys can manage to swing it!! My SO and I live on the East Coast too…feel free to let me know if you need any help planning.

 

And happy belated birthday!!