Mellisa Posted November 12, 2010 Posted November 12, 2010 This is gonna sound silly... About 2 years ago, i had this huge crush on a guy at my workplace.He was in a much senior position while i was just a fresh graduate starting out as an intern.He's tall,good looking,confident and capable.I remember seeing him for the first time, i thought to myself that i wanted to be with a guy just like him.I watched him and everytime i couldnt help but thinking that he's got everything i ever wanted in a man,well as little as i know him.Being an intern doing ground works back then,i never really had a chance to talk to him. And when i did get any chance to talk to him which were only two times in all, i got so nervous that i suspected i was acting like a teen age girl who had no idea what she's talking about..The other reason i didnt approach him earlier was that I didnt want to cause any rumors or have people talk so i kept my distance and pretended the whole time i had no interest.However, despite the fact we were basically two strangers,my feeling for him only grew stronger with each time i saw him.I started wanting him more than i had ever wanted any guys.Everyday i went to work hopeing that day would be the day i could finally got up some guts to talk to him and i left work at the end of the day usually feeling disappointed..I guess i just didnt have much confidence back then due to A)-I was just an intern and B)-i had never really been with any guy thus the whole thing made me at lost and nervous..Anyway,my feeling for him was actually pretty intense which was not even normal consider we didnt really have any interaction because of my shyness and reserveness.I had thought the feeling would go away after all it was just a crush that i didnt know how to act on it.But it didnt.A year went by and everytime i saw him i still got those feelings.It got to a piont where i just wasnt ok with the desiring him so much and yet didnt how to bring myself any closer to him.Seeing him everyday just kept reminding me of the fact that i wanted him so much and yet i couldnt have him.It was almost like a torture and i wanted to get out of that misery.So i started looking for a job elsewhere and when it came i left the company. I dated a few guys soon after as i saw the need to catch up the game as a late bloomer.Just when i thought i had left it behind and the memory all faded,that new job didnt work out and i ended up got a new job in another company that happens to be in the same block with only two streets apart from his company also is my last previous company...Going back to the same location, i was in a different place and thought i was no longer the girl who had that stupid hopeless crush on a guy.Well, until i bumped into him again! Now that i work there,I kept bumping into him like every few other weeks,sometimes months,but everytime i saw him i felt like it somehow brought all the feelings i used to have for him back;it reminded me of how handsome he was and how i wanted him.And right after i saw him,it was like all the guys i had dated after that, none of them could compare to him.And for a brief moments i felt like that intern girl who was stricken and smitten all over again. Still, i havent come up to talk to him.It wasnt like i ran into him and we exchanged greetings. It's that i sometimes just tend to spot him at the starbucks or the cafe or on the street when he didnt notice me..I'm fine with not having him now and i let it go.I have my own life and rarely think about him.But it's right after those time i saw him,i felt for a while what i felt two years ago and it still made me wonder a little what it would be like to be with him...He's like my dream guy and i still think he's so perfect for me:love: Sounds crazy uh? Anyone has any thought on this?I didnt act on it then, should i act on it now? And how? Or should i just let it go?I'm just a little confused with my feelings towards him..Is it even normal to feel that way about somone who you didnt really know?
dreamingoftigers Posted January 4, 2011 Posted January 4, 2011 It sounds like he is the normal crush material, no reality to it yet and just out of reach. Doesn't seem like there would be any harm in pursuing it however.
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