He is online

[rebeccajones]

I recently ran across old gmails. I thought I had deleted them all in all his emails in my email accounts, but I didn't realize I have alot left in this one account. Anyway in that account I can see he is online. He IS alive!! Just seeing the little online dot glow makes me sad and I feel close to him! Geesh NC suX!! I feel like a stalker sometimes. I'm just glad I can't see his FB. More pain!! The little green dot heals my pain for a moment. Weird.

[rebeccajones]

I'm ****ing miserable. I really never thought I'd be going through this again.

[rebeccajones]

I want to call him today or soon. Maybe I need to stop listening to sad songs.

[ReturnToSender]

Listen to Liz Phair.. Her Exile to Guysville CD. All the angst you can handle LoL

[lapse]

Two songs for you...

 

Sacha Baron Cohen "I like to move it" (from madagascar)

ETA - oooh, youtube:

 

Venga Boys "Hampster Dance" (ETA: ot sure if this is the Venga Boys or not: http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-3894301868978665655# )

 

If those two don't make you giggle and run around, then it's not the music.

Edited November 12, 2010 by lapse

[rebeccajones]

Thanks I will check these out, F the sad songs, let's move the F on! Yes I've been cursing alot more lately! It helps!

[ReturnToSender]

Yeah, I like the empowerment "F you Im moving on" type songs... Thats why I suggested Liz LoL! Bjork is another fav, and also some Smashing Pumpkins stuff. I lost my entire music collection during a hard drive fail Else Id tell you exactly which songs were on my "screw you" playlist LoL!

[rebeccajones]

Yeah Yeah Yeahs seem cool. Not too emotional I'll check out your links though. I'm curious about Liz Phair.

[McGrupp]

 

listen to this...headphones on.

 

you will probably cry, but thats ok.