Lovezen_30 Posted November 9, 2010 Posted November 9, 2010 (edited) I posted a few months ago back when I lost a guy I loved very much. He was a bit like my other half in the sense that...we were so similar. Obviously we had differences which made things interesting, but we shared a very similar dream, our beliefs were the same, the way we thought were the same...we used to say/do things at the same time, it was quite freaky. I think we understood eachother because we were so alike. So now he is gone, I feel like he is always with me. Not really in the spiritual sense because I'm not religious and I'm not sure about that. But that I'm trying to live my life on behalf of both of us. I said we were aiming for the same dream so now I'm continuing to do that for me and him, which is sort of ludicrous seeing as he's no longer here. And everytime I do something I knew he enjoyed doing or acting via the same values he lived by, I feel like he's with me then too...does that make sense? The fact he has died has changed me so much and it's with me all the time now I'm young, but feel that I've aged a lot in the space of just a few months. Sometimes I feel good about being so productive with my life now, other times its very, very heavy to bear. Most of the time actually, and it's overwhelming. Has anyone ever lost someone and felt this way? Just so I know I'm not nuts... edit: What I'm trying to say is, I think people who have lost someone will feel this way, but I seem to feel so strongly about it because one was so like the other, and vice versa. Edited November 9, 2010 by Lovezen_30
mickleb Posted November 10, 2010 Posted November 10, 2010 Nothing ludicrous about it. Makes perfect sense. It was so recent, Lovezen. You appear to be coping remarkably well, considering everything. I hope you understand this. x
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