fleur_de_me Posted November 8, 2010 Posted November 8, 2010 My ex broke up with me 4 months ago because I was moving away for grad school and he didn't want to do distance. We'd talked about how we were going to cope with this as a couple for months leading up to it, but he surprised me with the break-up two weeks before I left. I was devastated- did NC for a few months, then about a month ago he started IMing me, we talked on the phone a few times and I flew up to see some old friends and also spent time with him. I thought maybe we'd reconnect, but he spent the whole time telling me how much he loves being single and how happy he is. Sadly I got super sick while I was at his place and had to stay there an extra few days, was in the hospital- it was a mess. He took good care of me, did everything for me, but also made it clear that he doesn't want a relationship. After that, I decided I was done with him forever. He's a wonderful person, the one I thought I was supposed to be with, but I also decided I don't want to waste my energy loving someone who doesn't love me in return. I have been mostly OK for the past few weeks, but now I'm starting to feel sad again, and think about him and miss him. I keep asking myself when this will end, when I will feel "normal" again. Right now I still feel like I will never be able to love anyone else again or ever be super happy again. I don't know how to snap out of this....I am good at doing NC, but it still hurts me. Everything still reminds me of him, and I miss him. Terribly. And I hate myself for feeling that way.
Leandro Posted November 8, 2010 Posted November 8, 2010 I also decided I don't want to waste my energy loving someone who doesn't love me in return. Remember this. you will find some one who will love you in return someday. I'm doing good with NC, but also miss and think of her. A lot of things remind me of her. Don't hate yourself. Love yourself, for being such a awesome person.
tobydog Posted November 8, 2010 Posted November 8, 2010 I know how you feel...I wnet back to school last week, then this am had to come home as I was such a mess. It seems like it is so up and you think you are getting stronger then right back down again. I am going to sort my head out today and go back tomorrow. Hope you feel better tomorrow too! x
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