my adversity

[mgene15]

So my ex girlfriend and I went out for 2 years.I'm mexican and adopted by white parents and shes mexican and has her real parents. so right off the bat i felt ashamed that i was adopted by white parents and told her I my parents were mexican because I didn't think she would wanna date a guy with white parents. I was 19 at the time and stupid. and made a mistake because I was ashamed. so about 3 months later after that she found out because i took her to my house to meet my parents. so she got over that and everything was great for about a year. and then we went through a tough time and had an abortion. after that we remained close but then I caught her lying to me about where she had worked. so we werent together for a couple months. in that time i lied to her about where i had worked, i told her had a nice job working for the state so she would be interested and we could get back together. so we got back together and after about 7 months we finally split. Its been 2 weeks of n comunicaton, and she broke up with me because she simply said I lost her trust. Which is true. I did lie to her. and i regret it. But i only lied to either get with her or to stya with her, I no it was wrong. so about 2 wees ago I begged her to get back like an idiot, gave her roses with a card, texted and caled her like 10 time a day, after a cppl days i got the point, but then out of nowhere she texts me at 3 in the morning saying "she loves me but shes seeing another guy now". So it's been about 2 weeks of no comunicaton, and It is really tough. I think about her every 5 minutes and wanna call and text her but i hold back. I feel extremely lonely and the only time i don't think about her is when i go out to the bar with my friends on the weekends. I miss her alot and it kills me that she goes out with naother guy about 3 days after we break up. which has me thinking he's a rebound so she doesnt have to feel that breakup pain. anyways, what im trying to ask is im on week three of the no communication with the ex, what are some tips to not think about her as much? she was my first love and I miss her alot . I'm 21 years old. any responses are welcomed, thank you very much

[Hhhh]

i picked up reading and working out i now love my body more than my ex LOL you should be fine as time heals all wounds

[IfiKnewThen]

read, keep busy..try to improve on yourself. read men are from mars and woman are from venus. it really talks about the differece between men and woman and how we think, what we expect from each other..how to work through things togther. its really a good easy to understand insightful book. work on REALLY getting that job you love and can be proud of. work on being honest. let her know you are still there for "NOW", if she has a chance of heart. this doesnt make you an idiot and you will know you gave it ALL you have got. be patient. go easy on yourself. work on forgiving yourself and her. pray. get closer with family members and friends. know this will get better. let yourself heal. you will go from being sad to better some days..angry, confused. its all a part of the healing process. let it be. God bless.