At work, with that knot in my throat again, tears accumulating, ugh.

[LoveTNT]

Today, I feel sad. I'm at work and just want to leave. Lay out at a park and cryit all out. I had a few drinks last night. HOnestly, I told myself I would not drink for some weeks, cause the last few times I've called or text while "buzzed" not even drunk. Even if I have 1 dang alcohol drink, ok maybe 2, I feel sad the next day. I can't stand it. Not ok.

 

If you have time can you just give me positive motivation to just stay strong and not contact?!

 

I need to win the biggest ex loser contest! Heh :/

[Ajax]

We all have these days. Actually yesterday I was miserable when I woke up and just didn't feel like doing anything all day.

 

If you feel like crying you should. letting it out is part of the healing process. So next break you get find a secluded spot or go out to your car for a good cry.

[smk]

Hey...

 

You'll be fine - focus on winning the contest - think instead about how much better you are going to look in a few months when you win the comp - and then you will meet someone even better then your ex and you will have learnt so much about yourself too...

 

Be strong you'll be fine...

[nobmagnet]

nope you aint. i was

 

my advice would be to not take your phone out and if you do..................give it to a buddy. Share with your mates what you do and they will protect you. Drink is a drepressant so avoid it if it makes you sad ( it makes me happy:))

 

dont beat yourself up love we all do it.

 

nobbyxx

[LoveTNT]

Thank you...

 

I'm all about letting the tears flow. Seems like a 3month+ cry-fest. Over all I'm better, but those days sneak up on you that make you feel your back to day one. Oh gosh thinking back to that first week, horrid. Atleast now, I have days in a row where I can focus on school, work, friends, good times, shoppping, praying, eating (heh) and over all loving me, but these days sneak attack!

 

It's just so interesting and intriguing how someone could basicly shut you out and reject you but still somehow say they still "love you".

 

NOT!

 

I'm tired of being the dumper and feeling guilty. I had valid reasons dangit,...heh?

 

The D***dealing is not a life style I'm down for!!!!!! The trips and shopping were great, but at one point I felt like I had to stick up for my morals, Right? I don't do drugs, neither did he, atleast that is what I was told and believed...He's a good guy over all... He went as far as saying to stop JUDGING him... hmmm it's not judging Mr. it's loving and caring for your partner and letting them know the real deal holy field.

 

sigh....

[sacg]

TNT, I thought you were doing so well. You've sounded upbeat and a little positive lately. Don't expect this guy to roll over now your ready and open and give you what you want. Jees, babe, you dumped him. It had to hurt.

 

I hope you feel better tomorrow, and just give it time. If my ex was doing half as much as you, I'd be considering a lot, and she hurt the **** outta me. I love he to death, but dont think I could ever forgive.

 

Take what you did on the chin, and stay as cool as you have been. What will be will be

 

XX

[tobydog]

I know exactly how you are feeling...I went back to school today after 4 weeks off. During the 4 weeks off I mainly slept all day and had not cried in ages. This week I am crying all playtime, all the way home in the car...But when I am taching then it has really taken my mind off things. Cry if you need to, find a quiet place and have a good sob which is what I do......Take care, hope we can all get through this and feel less sad as the time passes xxx

[WTRanger]

What you don't see as judging, he sees as judging, then you judge him for his view. Once again, you are letting your intensity overshadow his wishes. Take a deep breath and relax for a bit, you are bouncing all over the board from content to madness over something you have no control over. You cannot control him, you cannot make him take you back, you can only control you and your actions. You have shown him you want to try again and you are sorry for your actions, now it's out of your hands.

 

Release your grip on trying to have 100% control and you'll start to feel less and less anxiety over this whole situation. Believe me, the more you try to push and think that you are showing "love" you are not. You are only pushing him away. I respect your intensity, and I think it's something a lot of us dumpee's would like to see from our dumpers, but at some point you have to hold your horses so to speak.

[LoveTNT]

SacG,

 

You're sweet. Sigh, You know it's that ex-love nightmare rollercoaster. Lol, keeps trying to knock me down. But over all Negitive<positive.

 

I won't be ashamed and emberassed of being hurt. It happens.

 

LS does help, what would I do without all you, heh.

 

One woman wolf pac! Now I want to watch -The Hang Over. I love the wolf pack speech. Makes me crack up...

 

Thank God I went home at a decent time last night, I would have been worse today. I waisted a hot outfit though, ahaha, repeat. My friends made me leave this bar I like, they had good dj's spinning, saw some cuties eye-balln, but I'm taking care of me myslef and I for now.

 

 

All over the place, the wind kind.

 

Exhale.

 

 

Twerk.

 

 

[Empire of The sun- Half Mast]

[LoveTNT]

What you don't see as judging, he sees as judging, then you judge him for his view. Once again, you are letting your intensity overshadow his wishes. Take a deep breath and relax for a bit, you are bouncing all over the board from content to madness over something you have no control over. You cannot control him, you cannot make him take you back, you can only control you and your actions. You have shown him you want to try again and you are sorry for your actions, now it's out of your hands.

 

Release your grip on trying to have 100% control and you'll start to feel less and less anxiety over this whole situation. Believe me, the more you try to push and think that you are showing "love" you are not. You are only pushing him away. I respect your intensity, and I think it's something a lot of us dumpee's would like to see from our dumpers, but at some point you have to hold your horses so to speak.

 

 

SHUSH IT!

 

Ranger that. jk.

 

I thank you for your honest opinion and compliments, heh. I know, I would like to have control over my emotions a bit more thats for sure, these are the lessons that teach me such thing. I can't control his choices.

 

Honestly, I will look back one day and smerk. I can't say I didn't try. I am intense, I know that. But over all lovely.

 

Peace to that.

 

 

Water...mmmm.

[Green]

U can do it. Stop feeling sorry for yourself you got this

[dreamingoftigers]

Work through the grief and then stand proud that you did.

[LoveTNT]

Work through the grief and then stand proud that you did.

 

 

Love it.

 

 

 

green- Gracias.

[WTRanger]

SHUSH IT!

 

Ranger that. jk.

 

I thank you for your honest opinion and compliments, heh. I know, I would like to have control over my emotions a bit more thats for sure, these are the lessons that teach me such thing. I can't control his choices.

 

Honestly, I will look back one day and smerk. I can't say I didn't try. I am intense, I know that. But over all lovely.

 

Peace to that.

 

 

Water...mmmm.

 

It sounds counter-intuitive but now the best chance you have of reconciliation is if you let go. Just take it slow. Tomorrow, shoot for 99.9% control, then the day after shoot for 99.8% and so on.

[sacg]

NAh, just let go completely. it'll happen if it will.

 

you speak well, so i guess you feel well. Let it happen TLC. Leave it alone. My guess us he maybe come back. but hey, Ive been so wrong about soooo much.

 

xx

[LoveTNT]

NAh, just let go completely. it'll happen if it will.

 

you speak well, so i guess you feel well. Let it happen TLC. Leave it alone. My guess us he maybe come back. but hey, Ive been so wrong about soooo much.

 

xx

 

 

TLC+TNT= Straight from the Glitter Bombsquad

 

Heh

[sacg]

TNT, tlc, lol, I'm gettin all ***ed up. But it's al good. :-)