Whipple Posted November 4, 2010 Posted November 4, 2010 Yeah, it's one of those days where it seems like good things are happening to friends and yet you're still getting the short end of the stick. Today one of my friends got engaged and of course that's all she talked about. Good for her but it just resurrected unpleasant memories. He picked out a ring for me, but obviously I never got it because he decided that our love changed. That pain still aches inside me. I don't understand how his feelings were so hot and then turned cold over night. Another one of my friends invited me to go hiking with her and her new boyfriend. Once again, the knife continues to twist and go deeper into my heart and more painful memories flow in my body. We went hiking the weekend before he decided that he didn't love me anymore. That was one of our favorite activities and we always bonded out in nature. How ironic. Hiking was our first date and our last date. Now it's ruined. Also I don't understand how my friend already has a new boyfriend before me. How is this possible?? She was dumped by her old one a month after me. Her way of coping with the breakup was going out to bars multiple times a week and drinking until she couldn't remember anything. During those times I was thankful that I wasn't as big of a trainwreck as she was. But now she's been happily dating this new guy for a couple of months. I don't get it. I just don't get it. I feel so devoid of any happy, positive emotions. I feel like a black hole and everything negative and unfortunate is gravitating to me for me to suck it in. I just want to be happy. I want something to go my way for once in the romantic realm.
skydiveaddict Posted November 4, 2010 Posted November 4, 2010 That black hole (despair) can take a long time to crawl out of . But you will make it. Hang tough and don't ever give up
Author Whipple Posted November 4, 2010 Author Posted November 4, 2010 That black hole (despair) can take a long time to crawl out of . But you will make it. Hang tough and don't ever give upThanks, but how does one crawl out of it? I'm trying to keep myself busy with activities that I used to enjoy, but they're not fulfilling. I can't find happiness or joy in them. I feel so incapable.
skydiveaddict Posted November 4, 2010 Posted November 4, 2010 Heartbreak is a long time going isn't it? You are clawing your way out, one step at a time, one day at a time, just like I am. . Barely perceptible, but each day you heal a little more, become a little stronger, more aware, more alive. And soon your life starts all over again. Keep going, you will make it through.
thatsonlyme Posted November 4, 2010 Posted November 4, 2010 Stay strong Whipple, you're not alone in this. Most of my friends are married as well, everywhere I go I see happy couples and even happy singles. I went to this Halloween party last week and there were only couples there! Also I have a friend who's gf broke up with him the very same day when my gf left me. I did better job dealing with my emotions then he did, I went out tried to socialize and make myself happy. Guess what, he already slept with 2 girls and met few more and he's not even trying! I still don't even have a new female friend, let alone sleeping with someone. I guess we're all different.
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