YoungLove92 Posted November 3, 2010 Posted November 3, 2010 im 18, i have anxiety but its not diagnosed anxiety... i have always had periods when i get really down and im very hard on myself... i dont kno if i have depression, i tell my mom everything but she has no idea about this and i dont want her too.. i have been thinking alot when i get down and i always think about suicide and how everyones better off without me... nd when i think about it.. i just can never picture myself actually going through with it.. ever.. but i still think about it and at times i rly truely want to, but then i just could never do it... idk if this is related to depression... when i have looked it up it says u need to be depressed for like 2 weeks and im not.. i go two three days being upset then im fine for a few days then go back to being upset.. some times im not upset for even weeks before i have a spell of being upset for a day or two.. i dont ever really see a reason for me being upset i just am. i have very poor self esteem which doesnt help, and this is rly the first time im posting about it... i have one friend that i talk to about it but he's far away.. i hide how i feel from others because i dont want to be a bother or ruin thier day.. i dont wanna be an attention hog.. and i have always cried pretty easily.. and sometimes i cry for no reason at all... and my anxiety makes things worse.. my family knows i have anxiety and im trying to keep it in control so i dont have to go on meds... i honestly dont wanna go on meds and i dont want my mom or friends to kno im like this.. is there anything i can do?.. and is it a problem for me to think like this even tho i wouldnt go through with it?.. Thank you:bunny:
dreamingoftigers Posted November 5, 2010 Posted November 5, 2010 Sorry to hear that you are going through this. It really does sound like depression. There are free counseling resources out there, perhaps even talking to someone for an hour or so would help. There are also books available for boosting your self-esteem.
ReggieAlex Posted November 5, 2010 Posted November 5, 2010 I honestly feel that at 18 you are too young to deal with this on your own. You may not want to talk to your mom, but I do suggest you talk to somebody you really trust, like a good Minister of Religion or Counselor. Here is one thing you may not know, but should. These things get worst if you do not nip them in the bud now. So, don't delay because delay is danger, as these situations tend to ruin relationships too. So, get to it. Talk to someone who can really help you in the next 24 hours. Commit to it and go. My best, ReggieAlex
Author YoungLove92 Posted November 6, 2010 Author Posted November 6, 2010 thnx so much i appericiate the replys.. i will look into talking to someone, i have noticed it has kinda gotten worse more recently.. i have been looking into talking to like a Counselor at my school or theres this grp at my church that i might join to talk to ppl about this.. so i will look further into getting involved.. Ty!
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