marcs Posted November 3, 2010 Posted November 3, 2010 its been about 2 months since my BU, we still remain in contact but ive accepted the breakup on my part and we are clear on this. However inside im dying and feel incredible pain 24\7. I really feel I am cursed in love. This was the girl of my dreams, I know that I will never ever find the same traits in any other woman its just impossible. I made alot of mistakes that even she says if didnt happen our situation would be different. She is with someone else now who is doing what I did wrong(she doesnt tell me anything about him I just know) even though they arnt as good a match as us, my gut tells me this RS will work out for her and be better than ours. Deep down I dont blame her for leaving. We have a 7 year gap, me being older. Our age difference caught up and ended up being an issue also. I just think I will never get over her ever. Ive been through 3 LTR breakups before, but ive never felt like this about any of the others. I really think I will be alone for the rest of my life and it scares me. I just cant and will not settle for just anyone. Im a perfectionist also which is my greatest curse. Really dreading waking up tomorrow...
SadGirl23 Posted November 3, 2010 Posted November 3, 2010 i'm trippin as to how this girl moved on so quick in 2 months. But you know what, it does happen.. rebound... which may not work out. just because she left you for something "better" in her eyes doesn't mean its going to work on their end. the dude she's with may leave her for someone else.. that's why i don't fxck with peoples emotions, play games, karma is crazy. but ya gotta give it up to her, atleast she's not playing games with your heart and stringing you along. imagine her with this dude and making you feel like shyt at the same time (texting you unneccessary texts, checkin up on you, tellin you how she's all happy go lucky on voicemails). Atleast you can do bad by yourself and you will get thru this.. I'm at 3 months.. but at 2 months, I was still a wreck..so I know how you feel. But the best thing for you, is to do something you always wanted to do, be around those who love you entirely, make a change in you life, I guarantee you will feel a slight better than the rut you are already in.
Author marcs Posted November 3, 2010 Author Posted November 3, 2010 well im not tellling the full story my bad its actually our 2nd breakup we went overseas together in june for 2 months with a few of her friends, a month prior to the trip she broke up with me. A week later I found out she was seeing someone and I said well I couldnt stop her trying to play it cool and maturely. Then a week later she posted that she was in a relationship with this dude on facebook. Everyone including me found out via facebook.I was so hurt and upset. Her friends were on my side and said she didnt deserve to be on the trip. She begged for forgiveness, and I took her back. We went on the trip, got back together during the trip. Issues were still there, I was trying but inside I was still very hurt by it all. We broke up again after the trip. When we talk she still doesnt tell me she is with this guy - i know she doesnt want to hurt me by saying it but I know she is with him. All she says to me is that her life has changed and that she never thought she would be where she is at. Deep down I know if I didnt make those mistakes I made she wouldnt have considered this guy. The regret is killing me.
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