Thedevler Posted November 2, 2010 Posted November 2, 2010 So my story is a bit of a mess and a bit complicated. I dated my hs sweetheart for 5 years. It was great she was my bestfriend. We got along great. About 3 years in she said she had never been with anyone else and would like try. Me being the guy who I am understood. So we went on a break for 4 months and we seen other people. After 4 months we agreed that we loved each other and got back together. In the 4 months she had contacted hpv with one of the 3 people she had slept with and proceeded to pass it on to me. I was upset at first but we had each other and we loved each other and we would get through it. Fast forward 6 months. I can't find work anywhere so I move to an industry town 1300 km north of my home town. Tonnes of work. Great pay, only problem, long distance. I tried to make it back home once a month. 6 months later she moves up here for 3 months and lives with me. But she gets accepted into school back home and has to move back. As we try the long distance thing , it's clear it's getting harder on her part. And eventually I find out that she has taken a liking to the only guy in her class. And last weekend her grandma died. She swears up and down that she still loves me, but she is confused but it's not fair to me that she can like o ne person and love another at the same time. So last night she broke up with me and it has hit me hard cause I know this time it has more than likely been for good. The moment she broke up with me it flooded my mind with what is my future going to be like. I will never find love with my disease that I now have. Any relationship will be comfortable at first and then it will come the time to tell them and it will scare them away. Realistically I will never have kids. I don't know what kind of support I am asking from you people or what I am even trying to say. Right now I am just shellshocked.
valpre Posted November 3, 2010 Posted November 3, 2010 Hey, sorry to hear about your situation. I'm sure it's not easy. Apart from the usual breakup advice, I'm not really sure what to tell you. Perhaps it would be beneficial for you to seek some counselling, especially with a therapist who has experience in your disease? Don't think that you will never find love again, the future holds many options for you! Take care and be good to yourself - and keep posting, even though you haven't had many responses so far. x
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