loverofloveandstuff Posted November 2, 2010 Posted November 2, 2010 (edited) So just recently, I had my number changed. It is in the nature of my old job, that I had heaps of people asking for my number and I ended up giving it to WAY too many people. I started ignoring some people/those who I had no interest in dating (meaning most of them) and I started getting really weird private number phone calls. My phone was going off all the time and I was scared to pick up any calls. Until yesterday, only a few very close friends had my new number. I was feeling bored and lonely today and my best guy friend won't talk to me and I'm just overall kind of feeling unloved so I sent out a mass text to all of my old contacts saying that this is my new number. Now it's happening all over again. I'm silly and I clearly have issues but it feels like I am always seeking out some sort of drama in my life and when it gets too much I isolate myself from everybody turn my phone off and hide away from the world... then I want the attention all over again. Last time this happened I left the country for 6 months to 'soul search.' Just wondering if anybody has experienced this sort of thing or if I am just totally f*cked up. Edited November 2, 2010 by loverofloveandstuff
utterer of lies Posted November 2, 2010 Posted November 2, 2010 I'm just overall kind of feeling unloved so I sent out a mass text to all of my old contacts saying that this is my new number. Now it's happening all over again. I'm silly and I clearly have issues but it feels like I am always seeking out some sort of drama in my life and when it gets too much I isolate myself from everybody turn my phone off and hide away from the world... then I want the attention all over again. \ Just wondering if anybody has experienced this sort of thing or if I am just totally f*cked up. You are totally f*cked up, but it's ok. Lots of women need their daily dose of attention whoring and drama. Don't worry.
Author loverofloveandstuff Posted November 2, 2010 Author Posted November 2, 2010 You are totally f*cked up, but it's ok. Lots of women need their daily dose of attention whoring and drama. Don't worry. great... I thought so.
Fouts Posted November 2, 2010 Posted November 2, 2010 You're young, right? You won't do those types of things in a few years. Growing pains I guess.
Surrealist Posted November 2, 2010 Posted November 2, 2010 Kinda reminds me of an old biblical truth: "A dog returns to its vomit". Ewww nice analogy eh?
Author loverofloveandstuff Posted November 2, 2010 Author Posted November 2, 2010 You're young, right? You won't do those types of things in a few years. Growing pains I guess. yeah... I hope you are right. It's like I know what I'm doing, and I know it's stupid and then I do it anyway. I think the fact that I continue this behaviour knowing it's wrong is worse than not actually realising it's wrong.
Author loverofloveandstuff Posted November 2, 2010 Author Posted November 2, 2010 Kinda reminds me of an old biblical truth: "A dog returns to its vomit". Ewww nice analogy eh? mmm...vomit... Just can't help myself!
denise_xo Posted November 2, 2010 Posted November 2, 2010 I think the fact that I continue this behaviour knowing it's wrong is worse than not actually realising it's wrong. Well, not really. Ignorance isn't always bliss, especially not in the long run
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