Lucky555 Posted October 26, 2010 Posted October 26, 2010 I am mainly angry at myself for caving. I talked to the guy because a mutual friend of ours wanted me to show him something so i sent him the stuff. Then all of a sudden we start corresponding and i am right back talking to him again. I am not back to not talking to him. He just is the same, selfish, talking about stupid stuff, and doesn't care a damn about me as usual. However, he gets into flirting as usual and now I got to be a lot stronger because i need to make room in my heart for a new guy. I'm going to say i fake the fact that im hurt around our mutual friend which is the reason for him thinking things are cool between this guy and I. I basically contacted him because of peer pressure..It wasn't me dreaming of him or lusting after him. Then later i caved and talked to him and thats when i realized i needed to back far far away and take care of myself as well as open my heart for someone new. He couldn't commit himself three years ago and he still cant now. He goes hot and cold and its awful. Well here i go again NC
WTRanger Posted October 26, 2010 Posted October 26, 2010 Why would your mutual friend want you to show your ex something? Why couldn't the friend do it? Just stay a wee bit stronger this time and really hold your ground.
Author Lucky555 Posted October 26, 2010 Author Posted October 26, 2010 It was to show him something I made the mutual friend is a guy and heis good friends with my ex. Ugh. I got to stay sooo much stronger it mainly disturbed me. I'm it sad or feeling like I want this guy it's just I feel angered it's weird I guess I never thought he would have lied so much. Next time I will say I'm not. I hate having to fake how I feel but it helps to avoid questions.
WTRanger Posted October 26, 2010 Posted October 26, 2010 Well, honestly, if you weren't faking your way through this then your friend would know to back off. Stop faking it and start being honest. First, start with yourself. You are perpetuating the lie that everything is okay when it's clearly not. You trying to avoid questions is only hurting yourself, no one else. It keeps you in the pits. There's nothing wrong with not wanting to contact or hear about an ex. If the mutual friend was really a friend, he'd understand.
Author Lucky555 Posted October 26, 2010 Author Posted October 26, 2010 good point. However the mutual friend would say something to the ex if he knew i was not wanting to talk to him or hear from him again. I guess i don't want my ex to know that I'm bitter about what he did so he can move on and leave me alone. The ex does not like ending things badly, he has a history of an ex actually vandalizing his car! I would never do anything like that even if i am bitter that he lied for so long!!!! How can someone do that especially when i was honest. totally agree with you that i hurt myself. Worst feeling ever. at the time i contacted him i didn't really think anything of it i felt good probably because i had avoided him for a while. Now i feel like what did i do I can't be friends with a guy who treated me horribly, lied, its totally against my beliefs! I need to be true to myself. In the beginning i was hurt but over time it just grew into bitterness. I don't want to be like this when the next guy comes along because it wouldn't be his fault for what someone did to me. Over time i let his actions prove himself, it was all talk. I guess the next thing to do is get back on track with avoiding...thanks for the support!
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