LostInTurn Posted October 25, 2010 Posted October 25, 2010 I now realize I'm really in this alone. I lost a very influential love three months ago. I put my trust in someone, a friend. Boyfriend or friend, trust just is not an option for me. I went cross country with someone I've known since I was very young. He was very persistent in wanting a relationship. He knows all about my ex. I'm in no position to take things and jump in feet first. I thought he was a great guy, respectful and honest. To my surprise; which it shouldn't be, he's a complete jerk. He hooked me in. He asked me to take down the walls, so I did. Apparently more then I had noticed. On our cross country trip, we had a great time. We hit Vegas, he wants to get married. Of course I think this is a joke since we just reconnected. I brush it off. He keeps at it. We make it to our final destination of San Diego. Have a great time. I leave on a flight to come home. We talk, everyday. I end up flying back to California to see him. I was onlu planning on staying for two nights; however I ended up staying for eight nights. When I get home, we had a fight. We were looking for apartments together when I was there, he kept telling me he loved me and wanted to get married (again with that, I know, I know) so, he shuts down and freaks out. He told my friend he just needs a little time and we'll pick things back up where we left off. This would probably be fine with the average person, but when someone I put my trust in does this, how am I supposed to believe him when he says that? I don't see how I can. He's so sensitive, its really just ridiculous. I didn't even do anything! I said 'I came there for you' and he gets all upset thinking I mean because he asked me to. One morning I didn't feel well and woke him, he told me that was rude. Well, excuse me for living but if someone I cared for woke me, I'd do whatever I could to help them feel better. I'm so sick of people and their BS. I don't shut people out. He expects me to just sit back while he does whatever it is, putting my plans to move ON HOLD. This is life, not a damn game and my goodness he's acting like a damn a** fool for doing this. I can't believe he cares about me. This is complete BS.
Recommended Posts