knaveman Posted October 23, 2010 Posted October 23, 2010 I think I just have to write this to get it all out, so bear with me. Have you ever had friends that you wanted to be with? Have you ever had friends that you didn't really want to be with? Are the latter really considered friends? This weekend I'll be losing the former and feel like I am out of friends. Now, I know this is not true because I have plenty of friends. Friends that will always be there for me when I need them for almost anything I need, a shoulder to cry on or a night out having fun or someone to help me move or even to indulge me in my newest fascination. The friends I am losing are not necessarily willing to do all those things but they are the ones I want to do them with, if that really makes any sense. I'm losing the friends that I want to spend my time with, no matter how difficult it may be. I'm losing the only friends that "get" me. I'm losing the friends that I connect with and when they are gone I won't have that connection with anyone else. I feel hollow. Friends are more than the time you spend or the the things you have in common or even the things you like to do together. They are the connections you make with people. I'm 34 and single and have a hard time connecting with anyone in my life. I'm losing the only two people who ever really understood me and saw me for who I really am. I don't know if I have the energy to do it all over again. I don't know if I really want to.
Not the love ace Posted October 23, 2010 Posted October 23, 2010 Hey man, I know exactly what you're going through and I feel the same exact way. I've been having some huge issues with my friends lately whom I feel I've become really close with and then I had a bad overdose and drugs and they all pretty much vanished and don't want to have anything to do with me. Everyone says give it time because they are probably worried and don't know what to say. In my opinion that's B.S. because if you love someone you're there through thick and thin. I think its a b.s. and cop-out excuse. I wouldn't run out on any of my friends like that. Like you, I do understand because the friends I had I enjoyed hanging out with them. They liked doing the things I liked to do and always wanted to go and have fun. My real friends are awesome and are there for me but I have to say-they're boring. I love them to death and we do have a connection but they just don't expand their horizons like the friends I lost and don't live in the moment like my other friends. My other friends lived in the moment, were spontaneous, crazy but were also just way too dramatic and proved to me that they are just chicken s**ts. Like I would love to be friends with them again because of the awesome memories I have with them, the times I spent and it was just simply fun. I'm ten years younger than you but I also feel the same. I don't know if its worth it for me to even care or try to make friends. I try and stay optimistic but without friends, I honestly don't want to live. Some people tell me "Oh, just make new friends" but its so much easier said than done. The same people who tell me that more than likely have a great social circle in comparison to me. I don't have a huge loving family so my friends are the world to me and I just don't want to be alone. Sorry I am ranting about MY issues when this is your thread but I just can relate to how you feel. However, if you and your friends aren't really ending your relationship, don't. Friends are something that should be cherished and are people who you want to keep forever in your life and grow old and share memories with. Unless it absolutely necessary, don't take the ones you love in life for granted. Life is too short and you never know what can happen in life.
Not the love ace Posted October 23, 2010 Posted October 23, 2010 Sorry I didn't ask at first but why are you losing your friends in the beginning?
Author knaveman Posted October 24, 2010 Author Posted October 24, 2010 Sorry I didn't ask at first but why are you losing your friends in the beginning? They're moving to Alabama.
Not the love ace Posted October 26, 2010 Posted October 26, 2010 They're moving to Alabama. If you're friends then distant shouldn't be nothing but a geographical and physical distance. You can ALWAYS visit them man.
Author knaveman Posted October 27, 2010 Author Posted October 27, 2010 You can ALWAYS visit them man. I know, that's why this was mostly just a vent. Thanks for listening.
Not the love ace Posted October 27, 2010 Posted October 27, 2010 I know, that's why this was mostly just a vent. Thanks for listening. No problem man. I know them moving away still sucks and I will still feel the same, but since you guys are still very much friends the absence will make the heart fonder.
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