LostInTurn Posted October 21, 2010 Posted October 21, 2010 Many of you know my story. I have not been on here for about one month; perhaps a bit more. Well, a lot of happened, on the side of good. However, the past few days I've had an overwhelming feeling and need to break NC. For those of you who know my story, please get too upset yet. I called my ex today. He answered. We spoke for about one hour. He said things, I guess I always knew in my heart he would feel. He said things I guess I always knew I would hear one day. He said he misses me, thinks about it. He wants to start as friends, take it slow. Re gain trust and see where it goes. This my friends, is what a second chance sounds like. This is what a second chance could be like, for me, for him, for us. When I hungup the phone I panicked. I got up, ran out the door and called a friend to meet me (all the while emailing and messaging other friends of mine as well) I couldn't believe I called. I haven't wanted to, at all. I couldn't believe I entertained the idea of seeing him. That alone, is crazy in and of itself. Anyway... obviously there are a lot of emotions happening right now. I called him and left him a voicemail. I said calling was a mistake and that I was mixed up and shouldn't have called. I don't want to know that he thinks three months is too long for us to not have spoken, I don't want to know he misses me, wants to see me, or thinks about us. Entertains the idea of taking baby steps. No! He crushed my heart and soul! Because of him, I lost myself and it took a team of people to help me pick up the pieces and be ok from it all. I needed to write this, for those who know me. I can't believe I did that, and I can't believe I told him I made a mistake by reaching out. I can not go back there and end up on the broken end again. I needed to end it before it even started.
buckeye Posted October 21, 2010 Posted October 21, 2010 My ex wife contacted after several months of NC. I was the dumpee, and I'll tell you, from my circumstance and point of view, I think you should leave him alone and let him move on.
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