harkkam Posted October 18, 2010 Posted October 18, 2010 (edited) Just memories of things we did were coming in and out of mind and were really messing me so I wrote a song/rap/poem. Memories and Prison Memories\ each one I have is filled with bittersweet pain\ feeling your presence here\ in these fingertips\ like trying to hug a cloud your smile is in my mind\ So many moments, so many times\ That we spent together\ Just so many things of the things that we said to each other\ How Id love to teleport turn back the hands of time\ How could I forget the kisses we so lovingly shared.\ The laughter that still rings in my ears\ Each time you walked I snapped a picture in my brain\ The city, your beautiful hands\ In my hands\ Driving through time square\ With the lights and your smile in my eyes\ The Brooklyn Bridge with the beautiful river flowing beneath\ Its was our ritual when I drove us home each and every night\ Now when I think of you\ Im trying to press the delete\ So that these moments I once cherished dont burn my insides\ What I remember I feel relief not botteling it up 1. Empire State building and every damn second of it like a movie 2. The south street seaport that we kissed for an hour in 3. The golf course we sat an hour at staring at the sea 4. The hiking trip that we took into the mountains me and her kissing at the top 5. South Seaport when I chased her and we laughed 6. In my school when I sang a song to her near the water fountains 7. When I held her in my arms and we watched a movie at QC 8. When I walked outside of the bathroom and there she was standing with her pretty smile smiling at me a smile that could make my heart stop 9. I remember when we walked back from playing pool and when I kissed her in my car 10. Then don’t forget Bryant park the bench we sat on and she massaged my back 11. Columbia University when I sat on the steps and held her and felt her warmth. 12. When I waited for her to come out of the bathroom from the Thai place that we went to after the University she had this smile that I will never forget 13. Then the walk back to the car and just walking through the ballet area 14. The park where she wore her green dress and I grabbed her and kissed her 15. When we broke up and met her on the bridge and I chased her and we made up 16. When we walked in Jackson Heights and we went to the Indian Restaurant and took her to a Jewelry store 17. Don’t forget New Years eve when I took her to that restaurant when the clock turned Twelve I grabbed her and kissed her 18. Christmas when we took a picture by the tree and we watched the people ski 19. How can you forget when we went skiing together near my house. 20. When she came over and I gave her presents. 21. When she came over and we took a bath together how could I forget the bath that I took in her shower at her house and then at the campsite we went too 22. The love we made as she lay on my bed and I had candles. 23. The trip to Philadelphia that we took together 24. The Staten Island Ferry when her head was on my shoulder and she bought me warm tea. 25. The walk back to our car from the Ferry terminal in the cold snow running back to our car. 26. The time we were underneath the umbrella together we walked 27. How could I ever forget planting fields and how I asked her where the garden fairy had come from? 28. The natural history Museum, and all the exhibits that we went to and kissing up against the glass 29. All the times we used to park near the trees and we made love and were intimate 30. How we held each other when ever we could. 31. The pictures she sent me that made me lose my mind. 32. The Brooklyn bridge the forth of july when we cuddled and watched the fireworks 33. When we kissed on the beach then made love in the parking lot 34. The night sky and the stars we stared at each other. 35. When I picked her up and carried her to my car because your shoes hurt and we sat in my car. 36. When a gang of kids walked up to our car at night and I held you, I knew that you were scared, told you that Id never let anyone hurt you, put my hand on your chest and put myself in between them and told you Id die fighting if I had to then let any one hurt my woman. 37. Then this comes to an end it had been one month since you broke up with me over SMS over a fight that we had I did the wrong thing and blew up that phone making myself weak You had had enough, I remember thinking I had to grab my balls and just make one last attempt then I took that last trip over the Verrazano Bridge parked outside your dry cleaners that you worked at. I walked in and there you were with you cracked a small smile on your face. In this black dress, I talked to you tried asking you for another chance to baby please take me back give me the time to grow up. You turned toward me and told me that you’re heart knew that I just wasn’t the right guy for you and that you were making the right decision. I felt sad while I looked at the sky and I tried asking you to hangout with me and you said no what’s the point. I made you laugh a little bit then about twenty minutes later you said "Okay its time to go" and I said "Then come here and give me a hug" you walked around the counter and put your arms around me and I just held on to you and kissed your cheek. As I walked out the door I looked back and saw your face in pain and looking up at the ceiling and I popped back in and said "hey" and winked at you and disappeared from your life forever. That was the last I saw you that was 5 months ago. 38. The next day I sent you a text saying that if I knew that you still loved me and why we had to be immature and stop talking to each other why couldnt we work on what was wrong. And you said that "this is for me it makes me happier and Im sorry I know it hurts you" if you cant let me go I'll never give you a chance. I didnt send you a text after that for about two weeks. 39. I cracked and I called you at work, asked you how you were and you hung up the phone on me and I called back and said "baby just give me a chance to talk" but you cut me off and said "what kind of man cant let a girl go" and thats when I knew you were no longer the girl I once knew so I said "screw you" and hung the phone up. That was the last that we ever talked Edited October 18, 2010 by harkkam
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