Bilal42708 Posted October 17, 2010 Posted October 17, 2010 Ive been reading on this forum for awhile now..since july. That was when the girl i thought i would be with forever left my life. She broke my heart but i managed some how to make the pain go away now there is just a hole in my heart. I am only 20 (birthday was 3 days ago lol) and i started dating this girl when i was 17. We were together for 2 yrs and 3 months. Never have i loved someone so much in life and i never thought that she would cause me so much pain. I would literally feel my heart hurt in the beggining and i would cry so much. She was also my first. I was how any guy would be at first crying, begging, and just pushing her away more. I started reading on here and decided it was time for the NC. I went through the whole month of september with NC and she txtd me 3 times that whole month. I would wake up every morning that whole month and would cry because i missed calling her in the morning telling her i loved her then letting her go back to sleep. NC was so hard at times that i would want to txt her so badly but i knew that by doing that i would just hurt myself more. Day by day the pain submersed. Right now i am at the point where i dont feel anymore pain but i still cry here and there because i still care for the girl and still feel love for her. I know i am not over her and i know it will take a long time becuase of the attachment i had with her and the love i feel for her. But i promise those of you that have got their heart broken that NC truly does help...the pain does go away you just need to do productive things while practicing NC. I used to get so scared thinking that my ex would never come back and i would cry so much ..but now i realize that i cant keep worrying about if she will come back or not..i have to worry about myself. I told myself that if my ex really loved me and wanted to be with me then some way some how she will find her way back into my life. You will also realize that there are more important things to worry about in life then one person that doesnt care about you. One day my ex will come to realize that i was the right guy for her and no one in this world would do the things i did for her and no one can love her like i can..but i cant keep waiting for that day. It will happen when it happens. But for now i am focused on myself and doing good in school and being productive in life. Those of you who are afraid of NC..dont be. It will only help you become a better person and help you heal. If you want to know more about my story and why we broke up just let me know, i will go into further detail. But i hope this helps all those with a broken heart
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