Should i try for the last time to get back my gf 'chajilee'?

[mridul_chajilee]

Dear friends,as in my 1st thread i mentioned that she left me due to my mistakes and i also tried so many times to get back her but atlast i failed.Now our breakup is about 11month and out of this last 4 month totaly NC and i have not seen her face too and dont know where she is.But something striking in my mind and again want her in my life.But i dont have any way to contact her cause she had change her number,email and even place of work and even i dont know any friend of her.But i feel that i realy love her.So friends plz help me.should i again want excuse from her or not?and how should i want her excuse for the last time coz i even touch her leg also to excuse me and she told me that if i come back being like God she wil never excuse me and wil not come back to my life again.But she was my first love and me to for her.so i still love her and want her the most.so friends give me some idea.is it fare to want her excuse again for the last time or not?thanks