EricaH329 Posted October 16, 2010 Posted October 16, 2010 After all of the wonderful improvements i've made, and as far as i've come, I think i've finally done it!! I've put it all behind me. Throughout the experience of learning who I am and what I want to become, i've pushed myself. I'd do certain things that would test my progress, and in turn, it helped me to figure out what else needs to be achieved. I made a playlist of songs when I first met my ex fiance, and have built it up to the songs I listen to today. I'll listen to the most recent ones, but I never dared to go back to the beginning. Did that at first, realized it wasn't a good idea so I stayed away from the bottom of the list. I decided to test myself this morning. I've been feeling so great, that I truly wanted to see if I had come as far as I thought. After the third song or so, I realized I had the biggest sh*t eating grin on my face I had been smiling the whole time! Even through the sad songs! I didn't feel sad or nostalgic, for some reason all I did was smile! I actually started jamming out to a few of them! I hear people say all the time, "I don't even know what I saw in my ex", after they get over them. I don't see it that way. He looks the same in pictures, but at the same time, he looks different. Almost like someone I had never known. And maybe, that's because I never truly did know him. Not the real him. Not until the end, any way. Ok so this is already a super long thread, i'll just get to the point. I'm extremely thrilled at the fact that this whole thing has finally been put behind me. This has been such an amazing experience. Even through all the tough times, i've come out a much stronger and wiser person. I honestly wouldn't give this experience up for anything! It's so eye opening and spiritual. It's just... amazing Thought i'd share :D
Jannah Posted October 16, 2010 Posted October 16, 2010 Yay for you!! :bunny: You've been an inspiration to a lot of folks here, so happy to hear this, you should be very proud of yourself!!
Author EricaH329 Posted October 16, 2010 Author Posted October 16, 2010 Yay for you!! :bunny: You've been an inspiration to a lot of folks here, so happy to hear this, you should be very proud of yourself!! Thank you so much!! That is so kind of you to say There truly is nothing better in life (that I have experienced), than achieving something within yourself. All of the goals i've ever set for myself (moving out, going to college, etc) have not compared to the feeling that i'm finally becoming the person i've always wanted to be. A strong individual. A content individual At the end of the day, I can honestly say that i'm proud of myself not for what i've achieved in life, but what i've achieved within myself. I'm starting to sound like i'm preaching I don't care how cliche or corny it may sound. I've never been happier
Gt.ooh Posted October 16, 2010 Posted October 16, 2010 Good for you, I just did the same thing today. "let go." It was much easier when I got a nasty feeling email from her after a month of Brk Up. Put all the reminders in a drawer and I'll come back to them when I feel it's right. Closed my FB account, won't bother anymore of her family, and life goes on. I'm excited to find a gym partner and start working out. In no hurry for a relationship, if something comes up naturally then great. If not it's man up time. Kudos to all of us that have been holding our breath to make it through a long a winedy tunnel called a break-up. Cheers.
SincereOnlineGuy Posted October 25, 2010 Posted October 25, 2010 I'm getting near to my 1000th post... and I'm here plotting to bestow it upon an "Erica" thread. (if only I could think of a few more things to say after this next step toward that end...)
SincereOnlineGuy Posted October 25, 2010 Posted October 25, 2010 I think father time has been assisting miss Erica in the mentioned endeavor... alas father time took her away from Loveshack for a while too... drat #999
SincereOnlineGuy Posted October 25, 2010 Posted October 25, 2010 as far as i've come, I think i've finally done it!! I've put it all behind me... I'm extremely thrilled at the fact that this whole thing has finally been put behind me. This has been such an amazing experience. #1000 LOL (let the celebration begin!) Erica is back in LS town ! SincereOnlineGuy Established Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Posts: 1,000
Author EricaH329 Posted October 25, 2010 Author Posted October 25, 2010 LOL Sincere!!! It's an honor to have your 1000th post be made in one of my threads :bunny: Congrats btw And yes, I am back Until father time takes me away again
tiarabun Posted October 25, 2010 Posted October 25, 2010 hey how long have you guys been broken up for? you're totally rocking it! i think i've reached the point being 99% over my ex but you are like the one of those super cool post break-up chicks in beyonce's songs! i hope i can smile thinking about the memories we share one day instead of feeling like i've been wronged
Trovador Posted October 26, 2010 Posted October 26, 2010 Good! Yep, it's an exhilarating feeling... One day you don't feel sad anymore... your ex is just another person who sometimes visit your mind... and you are free to love again... Congrats!
Fouts Posted October 26, 2010 Posted October 26, 2010 Good to hear ! There's ALWAYS a time when the ex is finally insignificant - forever.
Fern Posted October 26, 2010 Posted October 26, 2010 I am so jealous. I want nothing more than to feel like you do now. I LONG for indifference. Congratulations.
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