HopeLove Posted October 15, 2010 Posted October 15, 2010 My ex and I work only a couple of blocks from eachother and have similar schedules. So this morning I saw him from behind. He was walking very slowly and I wander how he's doing, if he is happy, if he achieved what he wanted by leaving me (I don't know what he wanted to achieved but I guess he wanted something, right?). You might think, well who cares, my answer is I do. I'm trying not to break NC because by the end of the month I would achieve 2 months of absolutely NC and will be 6 months since he dumped me. During this time we had contact only a couple of times. Apparently you should feel very good once you achieved 2 months of NC, so I want to expierienced that. Also, he obviously doesn't want to do anything with me. I shouldn't want to get in contact with someone who hurt me so greatly and doesn't want me but reality is that I would like so much to see him and talk to him. I would like to go right know to his place but I know it's a very bad idea and I would feel terrrible afterwards. Sometimes I still wander if he still loves me in a way and if he ever regreted his decison. I guess I'll never know. I would appreciate some support / advice from you. Thanks!
Idalis Posted October 15, 2010 Posted October 15, 2010 I think if he regretted his decision he would've let you know somehow. You're only a couple of blocks away, yet he hasn't sought you out. I know its hard but if you talk to him now you might put yourself back at square one and wouldnt that be much harder?? Be strong and avoid any contact, sounds like you're making progress so far!
Author HopeLove Posted October 16, 2010 Author Posted October 16, 2010 I'm still fighting the urge to contact him. I didn't have this urge for a long time but now is there again and is so strong.... help!
ganbare Posted October 17, 2010 Posted October 17, 2010 Awwww. Hang in there hopelove! You've already gone 2 months of NC so no way you can go back now! I know for me it is easy since my ex lives in a different country 12 timezones away. Keep your chin up!
Trovador Posted October 17, 2010 Posted October 17, 2010 Post on the thread created to avoid contact with exes... As a matter of fact I'll go there myself, although I don't want any kind of contact with my ex... on second thought, I won't go there he he...
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