She said her love through song but never contacted

[MenuSha]

My story started with eye dating in my office during bfast, lunch times. I rarely speak to her, as she always comes with a group. But daily this eye dating stuff happened between us and it went on for 6 months, then one day i came to know she is quitting the company and then i started the chat she started to say like "u r a mature man, should not be caught by feelings, what u had is just an attraction,etc etc"

 

Next day also i started the chat but she said all harsh words to me, who the hell u think u r, etc,etc. Then i sent one very emotional, needy meesage to her, she was very harsh aftrewards. my friend called me and said "she said if i disturb her she will complain to HR". So it was over, i was going through hell.

 

Afterwards i travelled overseas for an assignment, i felt a change, i thought she never loved me, it was just me. Though i used to see her profile in Orkut, except one day(after 6 months), i deliberately saw her profile so that she knows its me who saw her profile, the very next day she placed the song "I knew i loved you-savage garden" (this happ after 8 months of NC). I also placed a song in my profile "i promise you -backstreet boys"

 

Then i sent her a friend request, she never accepted, instead she removed her profile pic from Orkut.So after 3 months i came back to my country and immediately i sent her a message saying:

 

"i still love her, i dont want to go by assumptions like the song which she placed, i honestly want to know what she feels for me?, whatever she decide i will not question, but will move on knowing she is happy with her decision"

 

So the above message was sent on July, till now she didnt say anything except

• she placed another profile pic immediately after me sending the above message.
  
• once i added a new community in Orkut, she added many communities in facebook.
  
• she enlarged the same pic, so that she can be seen clearly in orkut, nothing done in facebook (infact facebook is what ppl use the most in my country
  

Sumarry:

she broke up Oct 2009, then i went in No Contact (NC)

she placed that song in May 09, i sent her the message in July, till now no response from her.

 

Last week i removed the song which i placed from my profile, i made all my profiles private so that she cant see anything.

 

Is this a rude behaviour? iam afraid where she will never contact me 'coz of this. 'coz whenever i see the song in my profile, i always think why she never responded.

 

She still has the song in her profile unchanged (iam confused what she wants)

 

Please help me guys, what should i do now?, i dont want to miss her in my life. yesterday i saw her by coincidence outside my office, she works in nearby company. iam very disturbed, i thought of speaking to her. donno she saw me or not.

 

Also iam about to travel overseas again for a year or so(golden opportunity in my career), but afraid where i will lose her forever.

 

Should i have to say anything to her before i leave overseas?

 

Please guide me, iam not getting any answer from any people, my only hope is this forum. i love her muych more than anything else in this world

[reneeneiman]

Are you kidding? No!!!! Get over her!!! She doesn't love you. She never did.

Rude. If she treats you like this now, what would life be with a woman like that? Think about it. Do you think she will change and fall deeply in love you? No!

[Billie The Puppet]

I'm confused where has any of the actual dating come in?

 

I've read eye dating so you two flirted with your eyes looking at each other and that was for 6 months and hardly spoke.

 

Then you start to chat?

 

So when where you ever a couple I don't see it in the post.

[MenuSha]

yea dating never happened thats true. May be it looks childish. We both are from different religions ie; iam muslim and she hindu.we are from india. but i dont know why i still have strong feelings for her.

 

she used to play games in messenger like, when i go status 'offline', she changes her status to offline. likewise for status 'online','away'.

 

But why should she add the song in orkut by adding application profiletunes, so that whoever sees her profile notices the song which she placed. It was very obvious, she did this only after knowing i saw her profile. i cant see this as a game. i came back to india with a great hope that i will be able to meet her. But she never replied to my message, instead she placed a new profile pic which she removed before.

 

That song gave me a great hope when i was overseas, why should anyone play with othere emotions. Dont they know this would hurt them?