YoungLove92 Posted October 15, 2010 Posted October 15, 2010 idk if this will help me but maybe someone else who reads this can understand how i feel.. im 18 years old and idk if i have depression or if it just my anxiety... i feel so alone so much.. i have had a past relationship with a guy who well he put me down alot.. i use to consider him my best friend cuz i was able to tell him anything till the end of the relationship.. he started getting mad at me for not telling him i was upset first thing... i alrdy have a hard time telling ppl im upset and what from.. i get upset pretty easily and i feel like i have no one to talk to.. i feel like no one understands me.. i have a loving bf atm and i feel rly happy when im around him and talk.. but sometimes i feel like i cant tell him things even tho i kno i can... i just i feel so lost and i get so down on myself all the time... i never feel good enough for anything and i kno its not rly true... but i still feel like that... as i said before i have rly bad anxiety so i get anxiety attacks alot... ive not really told my parents about how i feel becuz again i dont think they will understand... if anyone has any pointers to help with self esteem or just being able to talk to ppl plz let me kno... i feel rly awkward writing this.. and i just idk what to do anymore... ive... well... ive started having thoguht about me wishing i was dead but i kno deep down i rly wouldnt do that becuz i wouldnt do that to my family... so idk if i rly have depression and some ppl have said meds for depression dont work so im kinda nervous about even trying them... idk what to do im completely lost..
skydiveaddict Posted October 15, 2010 Posted October 15, 2010 (edited) Are you is school? If so they almost always have free counseling people. I'm concerned about you "wishing you were dead" even though you say you don't mean it Even if you're out of high school and not in college, there are lots of free services available to you. But I wish you would go to your parents even though you're afraid to, and tell them what you're feeling (unless you really have a bad relationship w/them). My point is there are people out there that can help you, and you are NOT alone. I've felt like this before too. Like the only life you have has been completely crushed right out of you. As for meds, all I can tell you is they worked for me. But you need to go see a doc. Above all, don't be afraid to get/ask for help. If I could do it than anyone can, including you. Help is on the way if you are brave enough to take that first step.. Take care, SDA This song always made me feel better Edited October 15, 2010 by skydiveaddict
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