worlybear Posted October 12, 2010 Posted October 12, 2010 :(Don't know if this is the right forum but am falling apart tonight. I thought I was managing but today I went for a teaching job and didn't get it. I really needed the work, had a good interview and the kids enjoyed the lesson. In the feedback I was told the lesson needed more pace- I would've accepted the crit except I used the lesson last year in my previous job and was highly praised(and got that job.)I answered all the questions at interview and I am up to date with all the new strategies. I feel such a failure. I am struggling financially (big time) and I have had such horrendous problems in my personal life I just feel like giving up on everything. I'm fed up of pretending that I'm coping when I'M NOT. I know that there are people worse off than me, but tonight I just don't care. I'm too old and too tired to keep getting knocked back like this. Any help out there.
sumdude Posted October 12, 2010 Posted October 12, 2010 Sorry you're having such a rough time. I've had more than my share the last few years. I have one little quote for ya. "When you're going through hell, just keep going." - Winston Churchill Not the most inspirational but the best advice I've ever heard. Helped the Brits through the Battle of Britain and the Blitz.
GorillaTheater Posted October 12, 2010 Posted October 12, 2010 "When you're going through hell, just keep going." - Winston Churchill That's all you can do. My wife had a miscarriage in June (totally unexpected pregnancy; we're not exactly spring chickens), and I found out Tuesday that my oldest daughter was date-raped a couple of months ago. I'm left struggling with trying to get her the help she needs while trying to keep myself from literally killing the son-of-a-bitch. And all I can do is keep going.
quankanne Posted October 12, 2010 Posted October 12, 2010 worly, you're not a failure – it's just that all those shxt-things that happen here and there are suddenly piling up and conspiring against you. Sucks that the higher ups didn't like how you presented the lesson, but it *is* good to know that the kids responded positively. So keep that in mind – your target audience is still giving good feedback, and at some point, someone in a hiring position is going to pounce on that ability. My thought is that shxtty things can only stay shxtty for so long before things eventually come back 'round. ah GT, am so very sorry to hear about both incidents – I hope you find that spot of peace soon. XXX
Author worlybear Posted October 12, 2010 Author Posted October 12, 2010 Thanks all. I've recovered a bit now- I was just bitterly disappointed. Like everyone I'm struggling financially and I really want to support my daughter. Now I've had time to be rational I can see, with hindsight ,that it wasn't the job for me. I've been back on the job site and applied for a temporary contract and the new jobs are out tomorrow. I think it was a culmination of things, worry about money, worry about family and my daughter's 9th birthday this week and no big presents and no dad. Tell me that life gets better- PLEASE!
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