Sheppy99 Posted October 11, 2010 Posted October 11, 2010 So I just started a friendship with my ex. We have been talking all the time on BBM for 3 weeks and it's been going surprisingly very very good. I don't have any omg I need you back feelings at all however under the right circumstances, I MIGHT consider it but too early to tell. So a little back story and I'll try to keep it super short. We have been broke up for about 3 years. We tried to be friends 2 or 3 times which crashed and burned cause there was still too much feelings there that persisted for a long period of time. The relationship initially ended finally cause she just couldn't do it anymore. I had royally messed it up because I was a very screwed up person back in my early 20's. I was dating an extremely psycho girl and was in a just awful relationship that totally turned me into a negative bad person and she suffered the consequences of it. I treated her very badly just cause that was all I was used too. When I finally got out of that awful relationship, my life started to turn around and I realized how much this girl meant to me and how amazing she was. But the damage was already done. She couldn't trust me not to hurt her and she couldn't see me as any other person other than the awful guy who had treated her badly. I understood and didn't hold anything against her for that. It was my doing not hers. So I left it alone and moved on with my life trying to be that person I should of been with her to every new girl I met and it's been very rewarding and my relationships have been immensely better even if I haven't met the "one" yet. So back to the current. We're talking for 3 weeks and last week when she was in town she showed up unannounced at my work to surprise me when I came out. (I thought it was super sweet) It was the first time we had seen each other in years!!. She gave me a big hug and we talked for an hour about everything. It was awesome. That was last weekend. This weekend we actually hung out and went for some drinks and came back to my place and watched a movie. Btw we've already been discussing friendship and talking about being friends. We joke sometimes about having "extra fun" but nothing serious. Well we ended up kissing and not just a peck....... I drove her home and I didn't know what to think of it at all. The next day she messages me on bbm and I avoid the subject completely cause I dunno how she's feeling about it so eventually she just comes out and says "Soooo we kissed last night :D" With the big smiley... So I said to her, well what did you think of it? She replies "It was better than any kiss we've ever had in the past" I mean wow what a response right? Kind of blew me away. So I replied with "wow, that's really nice to hear!" What's strange is during our coversations she's seemed super apprehensive and very negative to any possibility of us getting back together. Not that I've brought it up as a "hey i want you back, what do u think" Sort of way. But just in the things she's said about her future and us etc. Lately she's been talking about how much she's noticed I've changed and how different it is. Could her feelings be changing or maybe the kiss was just a one time thing.
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