Karponis Posted October 11, 2010 Posted October 11, 2010 Greetings loveshack forum! I will try to explain my situation as short as possible. After a relationship of 2 years and living together for 1,5 our relationship is over for 3 weeks now. It seems that because of my Marijuana use, (Wich I tought was harmless) + a lot of stress I had a lot of psychosis. In wich I have hit my girlfriend. I have not beated the crap out of her, but I hit her, after that I realize what I have done and get sucked back into reality and feel very bad for doing something as awefull as that. (Heavy mood-swings) All and all I don't remember ANYTHING from those moments. After the break up the very next day I runned to my docter with the story. He has put me in therapy for 3 days a week and I have an anti-psychotisis medication now. Also I stopped using marijuana for 3 weeks now and never plan to do it again. I am starting to pull my life back together. I have been a jerk to her friends because of the paranoia (thinking they want to kill me or break us up). I have already called all of them and explained why I was such a jerk. I told them that I am very sorry and can understand why they never want to see me again. They understood me and backed me up by inviting me to parties and being friends again. Now that I have called my friends and hers. I want to call her parents and apologize for what I have done to there daughter. I love her very much, I really do. And if I knew earlier about my psychosis I wouldn't of hit her. I havent spoken to her for 3 weeks now, since day 1 that she gone out the door, and her friend told me to go away from her home. I don't know what to do. Can I call her? Or must I wait till she calls? My lesson + advice to others from this: Don't do Marijuana or any other drugs! As harmless as they seem! I have used it for 7 years, and I gone from only-weekends to smoking it instead of sigarets. Now I quit with it, forever!
TomerT Posted October 12, 2010 Posted October 12, 2010 Hi, it is really great that you found strength to make such a major change and commitment to improve your live. I can understand your urge to apologize...So what I would suggest is to write her a letter and just drop it in her mail box (or something like this).. First of all it will allow you to think what you want to say, secondly it will show her that you are not chasing her and using this letter as an excuse to see her and/or to get her back... This is my opinion...Hope it helps...
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