HopeLove Posted October 10, 2010 Posted October 10, 2010 Sometimes I want to break NC and try once again to reconcile. I wont do it since I know he doesn't want to have anything with me. He doesn't want to be in contact with me so he wont "be upset and reopen his old wounds". But most important I know I will feel so sad after and get back at square one and I know I'm so close to move on, I just know it and yet there's still a part of me who wishes him crawling back... It's nearly 5 1/2 months (end of April) since we broke up or better to say he dumped me. I broke NC after 2 wks, went NC again and he broke it 2 wks later (but I didn't reply). Then I broke it at the beginning of July and then again at the middle of August. The last time we had contact via email was at the end of August so at the end of October there will be 2 months of fully NC. I read that if you achieved 2 months of NC you'll feel so much better so I want to expierience that. In November is my birthday and I imagine he will text me, just to say happy b-day, but maybe I'm wrong, I was so wrong with so many things... e.g. I thought he was the one... I just wanted to share this with you guys.
SadGirl23 Posted October 10, 2010 Posted October 10, 2010 (edited) It's really easy way to see it.. 1)Break NC and try for reconcilation only for him to reject which you will be back at square 1 again! 2)Break NC and try for reconcilation only for him to say "Let's make it work" 3)See how NC really worked for you by breaking NC and try for reconcilation and you just may not give a shyt if he says yes or no. (Dare devil stunt move, I wouldn't chance it) 4)Continue to move on without breaking NC because a relationship shouldn't be a waiting game, either you want it or you don't and if 5.5 mths went by and no contact from the DUMPER for months, I would just continue on my path. It will save me further distressed. I just think that unless I was totally to blame for the breakup, it is not my job to try to rekindle the relationship when the DUMPER made a choice. Edited October 10, 2010 by SadGirl23
Author HopeLove Posted October 10, 2010 Author Posted October 10, 2010 I know he made a choice wether I liked or not and I'm not going to break NC. I makes no sense and if someone should make a move it should be the dumper. I'm feeling much better, as I said I know I'm nearly over him and so it would be absolutely really stupid to go back and feel miserable like some months ago. And yet there's still a stupid part of me that it's still not willing to let him go. I hope this part of me will give up soon.
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