JamesMay Posted October 10, 2010 Posted October 10, 2010 I broke up with my ex about a year ago after a relationship of 4 years. She left for an exchange programme abroad last month and we had one last evening together (I cooked some fancy pasta, we played some guitar...). It was very cosy and normal until we had to say goodbye and we were hugging for about 10-15 seconds. She was breathing in my neck and her eyes were teary. We started looking at eachother when she gave me quick kiss on the cheek. I was a little perplexed and turned away for a second. She asked me if I was ok and I returned her question (we were both surprisingly 'ok'). I showed her out and then we just gazed at eachother for about half a minute, her eyes a little more tearstained than before. Then I closed the door. At least that no contact thing is working out now. I can't even stand looking at her pictures with that weird new smile she's developed. It's like she's on Prozac. Maybe she is. Do I care? A bit.
Trovador Posted October 10, 2010 Posted October 10, 2010 Why are you on NC after having a nice moment with her? It was just a kind of truce?
Author JamesMay Posted October 11, 2010 Author Posted October 11, 2010 What's the point I guess? She's all into that sex and the ****ing city "I'm such a strong and independent woman"-bullcrap now to the point that it drives me insane. It's like women are finally and proudly discovering the magical world of frustrated 15 year old boys (she's into tall guys now!). I texted her a couple of days after our goodbye and she was denying everything, even here blantly obvious tears. I don't want to bother asking her what the **** is on because it's a wall of **** I'm not even going to try digging through. She'll probably come back even weirder and more ****ed up and I don't want to waste any more energy. So yea, call it a truce.
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