siuys Posted October 6, 2010 Posted October 6, 2010 Hi all, after 2 weeks of NC, I saw separated MM the other day. A week ago when he sent me an sms, I did ask him to only call me when he has sorted himself out and knows what he wants but I caved after a night of drinking. We ended up spending 3 really lovely days together. I was sick as a dog, so he just stayed with me, made me dinner, read to me that kind of thing. I sensed the change in him, and the slight insecurities he felt when he asked me if I had pulled back from the R. Well, yes, a little. After all, how much can one be trampled on, albeit unintentionally? He confirmed again that his feelings for me are huge, and that he only needs bit more time to sort out the rest of his issues. I didn't ask how long as I still have my deadline in my head for myself. I asked him how he sees us moving forward. He said he has thought about it, and said after this 'clean up' process, he wants to date me properly, then move in together. I am not so sure if he means this, or just saying. Despite the amazing three days we had, and the change I sensed in him, I somehow find it hard to trust what he tells me. His actions do tell me there is change, and the way he relates to me and talks to me has changed. There is a definite bond there now that cannot be removed so easily. Maybe because I am getting tired of this situation. Although I am hopeful on the one hand, on the other I am not. I fear that he will flip flop on me again. He acknowledged that although a few months of NC would have been ideal, he has accepted that he can't do it, and neither can I. He said meeting each other occasionally during his 'clean up' with no contact in between works for him. It works ok for me too for the time being. Not sure when I'll see him again but I'm ok with it. Knowing the pattern, probably in 2-3 weeks... I don't know what I want from writing this post. I guess just getting my crap out there. Hope you don't mind. Any opinion is valued.
UntoldStory Posted October 6, 2010 Posted October 6, 2010 Hey siuys - honestly, I have to say, it sounds pretty nice. 3 great days on and then a couple of weeks off... I could live that way for a while. I know the hangover would set in for me eventually, but I hope in your case there really has been a significant shift on his part. All the best!
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