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5 months ago something really messed up happened which ended up with me killing someone. It was a complete accident and it has haunted me ever since. I went to court and was let free. My ex helped me through it every day of my life and was there to support me. I couldn't sleep or eat much. I got past it in summer, and then she broke up with me (read my other threads). I was devastated by that, but I got over it and for the past 2 weeks I have been great, happy and having a good time. 3 - 4 days ago all the memories came back for no apparent reason and I can't sleep again and I'm finding it hard to eat and it's generally really affecting my life, I cannot concentrate and I'm always "zoning out" thinking about it. I can't and won't talk to my parents about this and the only person who could really help me is my ex. I'm in no contact though and I don't know what to do.

 

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If someone died as a result of something you did and you can't sleep because of this, I think counselling would be a good call.

 

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If someone died as a result of something you did and you can't sleep because of this, I think counselling would be a good call.

 

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Been to councelling, I hated every second of it. I would never, ever go back there - I hate opening up to people =/ That's the main problem here, my ex is the only person I can :(

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Been to councelling, I hated every second of it. I would never, ever go back there - I hate opening up to people =/ That's the main problem here, my ex is the only person I can :(

 

Sounds like it's time you tried to open up to others: you have no right to contact your ex and offload on her shoulders any more.

 

Perhaps the first counsellor wasn't very good? That happens. Happened to me. My second was fantastic, though.

 

Have you spoken to your doctor about the difficulties you're having?

 

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Yeah I guess so :(

 

I should probably find another counsellor, probably a youngish woman this time. It's much easier than an oldish man.. I'm feeling better today though, I slept properly last night and I woke up happier.

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Yeah I guess so :(

 

I should probably find another counsellor, probably a youngish woman this time. It's much easier than an oldish man.. I'm feeling better today though, I slept properly last night and I woke up happier.

 

Just go with whoever you feel most comfortable with. Counsellors are there to help us to learn how to relate better, but we tend to 'click' better with some and not so much with others. Plus, some are simply better at it.

 

Good news re. the sleep.

 

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