cb9343 Posted October 3, 2010 Posted October 3, 2010 well he sent my key and three page letter back telling me basically some of my faults but he is not in the right position or mind right now. he signed up for the reserves and now i think he is regretting his decision and scared. he is 33 years old and is strarting all over again. he was a drug user for a long time then moved away from his roots and has been clean for about 3 years.. his father killed himself so he has been through alot and has learned how to run when things get tough. We had an amazing relationship but i am insecure at times and he hated that about me.. We had a tough week and i got scared and sad about him leaving so he broke up with me.. I wrote him a letter apologizing for my behavior and he wrote me the letter a week later telling me how he is lost and its probably the biggest mistake he is made but he needs to get his life together.. We talk after it i told him i was here for him and i did not talk about us just told him i was here and i supported him i did not want to put any pressure on him... I texted him the next day telling him i was thinking about him and if he wanted to come for dinner he could.. i never heard back from him..sooo what should i do my mom tells me to try to be here for him to support him and get over myself.. but it hurts to talk to him cause i am so in love with him.. is that selfish to be thinking of me or should i be his friend and support him... other people tell me to leave him alone and he knows where you are adn he broke up with me and he needs to mature.. i have a 3 year old to think about too.. any advice?
Billie The Puppet Posted October 3, 2010 Posted October 3, 2010 Stay NC. As much as NC hurts being in contact is like a drug itself and will only do more damage than it's worth. I am now on week 5 of NC and it still hurts but being in contact only got my hopes up or caused fights etc.
Author cb9343 Posted October 3, 2010 Author Posted October 3, 2010 Stay NC. As much as NC hurts being in contact is like a drug itself and will only do more damage than it's worth. I am now on week 5 of NC and it still hurts but being in contact only got my hopes up or caused fights etc. your right it's easier as days and time goes by its only going to help the healing process.. i have so much support.. i feel like if someone adores and love me like the way they said they do you dont walk away. i dont think there is anything wrong with me maybe i am a bit insecure but i am working through it. I have never walked away and i never judged him.. he walked away from two very special things i think it is his loss...
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