Author drake102 Posted March 22, 2004 Author Posted March 22, 2004 Well as I said last post "I was going to keep myself busy.". I have and it's really did a huhge turn around for me in the last past week or so. I've been drawing my ass off and I'm getting better everday. My friends have been a huge help and I love them to death for it. I have redesigned myself you might say. I brought a entire new wardrobe and I'm turning heads. I feel good when I get "fly" as my friend say, even thou it just a button up dress shirt and a t-shirt underneath witH jeans and new boots and my hiar styled up. And I've purchased some colonge. As for my ex , she has broken up with the bricklayer and felt that she needed to tell me about it before I heard it from someone else at work. And she hasn't really stepped up a level with her current guy she is chasing after now. It's her roomates EX-fiance. I just look at her and shake my head and wondering why is she telling me this. She made it clear that her and the bricklayer was none of my business then why is this my business all of a sudden. And she is always complimenting on my new look and how I carry myself. I usually keep the convo's short and say I need to get back to work and walk away. I have'nt called her at all and don't plan on starting. She is all nice and sweet towards me now and it's strange. My new outlook is at this point of my life and being only 21 , I'm too young to be in a serious realtionship and figure out my life at the same time. too conflicting. I'm looking out for me and my friend and people Iknow love me truly and care about me. Just thought I should ive everyone a heads up on the deally-yo.
Vivid_29 Posted March 23, 2004 Posted March 23, 2004 Glad to hear it Drake - You are being good to yourself. You deserve it, dude! I just look at her and shake my head and wondering why is she telling me this. She made it clear that her and the bricklayer was none of my business then why is this my business all of a sudden. And she is always complimenting on my new look and how I carry myself. She probably realizes that her letting you go was a big mistake. She also may be jealous in seeing that you've changed your attire and moved on. Instead of going down, you've brought yourself up -- she notices! Give yourself a pat on the back!
Author drake102 Posted March 27, 2004 Author Posted March 27, 2004 There is something wrong with this women I swear to god. Just a few days ago at work she is all hppy -go-lucky shyts and giggles type stuff. I paid her no mind I just figured hey she must have gotten laid and finally got that bug outta her a$$. But then as I pass her she is like you wanna fight. This is a game she and I use to play, were we would try and slap each other legs and still defend ourselfs , it was fun.....WAS. But I still did'nt pay her any mind . She proceeds to pumel me with a hail of playful hitting. I keep going and turn my back to her. She jump on my back and wraps her arms aroud me and trys to hold on. I stop dead in my tracks highly annoyed at this point, and she stops. I thought that was the end of it and I was wrong as always. She keep hitting me as she walked past me a few more times. It's still radio silence on my part the only time I speak to her at all is when I'm working with her and it is work business that we talk about We have never talked outside of wrok in weeks almost now. Today at work she acted as if Iwas just someone she worked with and hardly showed any emoton at all the same cold-blooded beyocth she usually is, I was like ok your bi polar or something. Just more reasons for me to stay away from her. But why the hell ws she all playful and shyt that day when she knew we aren't the best of.............. whateva we are at the present time?
Author drake102 Posted April 5, 2004 Author Posted April 5, 2004 Well I've been do great for the last past week, I get a week from work for spring break and all week I've been having fun and not thinking about her. I'm getting on with my life and doing what I need to be doing to set up my future. I get a call from her on friday and I just ignored it and I went about with what I was doing at the time. Like an idiot I return her call on saturday and left her a message. I still have a dish of hers or something, so I figure I should get it back to her so she won't pester me later on. I go over to her apartment and remember this is the place she told me I WOULD NEVER BE ALLOWED BACK BECAUSE SHE THINKS I WILL FORCE MYSELF ON HER. Once again I the idiot go over and take back her dish. We talk and she is going on about her new boyfriend who happens to be her roomate EX-fiance. She and her roomate are on sour terms and are nto talking. So we decied to grab a bite to eat. During this whole convo she is telling me how she does'nt have a job lined up for the sumer due to our summer lay-off period, her lease is gonna be up soon and she doesn't have a place lined up and since her new boyfriend is a trucker she wants to go on the road with him. THAT ROMANTIC .....as much as a crusty a**h***. And in her sick twisted ways she also told me in how he is better than I am due to his money intake. Am I in the wrong to still want her back? On one hand I do but on the other I know I should'nt and that I would have to deal with all that bullshyt all over again. Why do I still feel this way about and what should I do. I can be a dick and just tell her to leaves me alone and to never call me back but I can't that not my personality ,I'm not a mean person at all .
Vivid_29 Posted April 5, 2004 Posted April 5, 2004 Drake - I don't think your an idiot for going to her. All you did was return her dishes. Nothing wrong with that. I wish some of me could rub off on to you. If I was really into someone, but it didn't work out, I usually give myself about 3 days to grieve, alone. Once, I get it out of my system, I put it behind me with my head held high and I focus on how to improve myself, just as you did. But you're still hanging on. You have to realize that if you did everything in your power to make your relationship work and it didn't turn out how you expected, you have nothing to be ashamed of. Accept what has happened between the two of you and those feelings of loss, anxiety and desperation will diminish. Let her go dude and continue to be good to yourself. Go out and meet a new wahine. There is someone out there for everyone! Let it all go and find peace within yourself! ~V
Author drake102 Posted April 28, 2004 Author Posted April 28, 2004 UPDATE UPDATE!!!! Wow it has almost been a month since I posted here. Not much has canged I'm still single living my life and extremely happy. And My psycho ex is still with her new trucker boyfriend. I look at her in a new light and all I see now is how DUMB she is. She and her new boyfriend are buying a house and they have only been dating for about a month and some odd days , they don't know shyt about each other. She is just a washed up whore I'm soory to say it but she is. I love how she has too convience and trick her own damn self into thinking this is and everything in her life is perfect nad nothing is wrong with it. She calls me whenever he is gone on theroad and wants to hang out and everytime we doHE MUST HAVE SPIDER-SENSES OR SOMETHING CUZ HE ENDS UP CALLING. And she never drops it to him that we are hanging out. And if he does know he tells her to tell me to keep my hands to myself (but he is just joking ....................my balls he is ). To make a big mess nice and neat she is settling down at the ripe age of 22 and becoming a housewife ( oh yeah she just knows he is gonna pop the big question) and doing gthe same damn thning she did here in this town. They are moving to some pleasantville type town up in wisconsin. I guess she did too much sucking and ****ing in her teens. BUT REMEMBER THIS IS STABLITY I COULD'NT GIVE HER and I was hold her back from accomplishing big and better things. pft whatever. OH AND GET THIS. Everything is in his name just i case things don't work out and she can leave scotch free but people aren't supposed to know that so shhhhh. remember kids the word " ST-AB-LITY". GOLD DIGGER more like it. Whew sorry to rant and rave like that but hi-hoe-hi-hoe it's off to work I go. HOLLA BACK FOLKS p.s. I finally got my first art gig, drawing a childerns story book, 3 of them actually. YAHHH!!!! I love kids stories.
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