Lovely326 Posted September 30, 2010 Posted September 30, 2010 Hello everyone.. I'm really hoping someone reads this and gives me some insight..I am a 22 year old female and I feel like I am stuck in my own brain..which I consider to be a blessing and a curse at the same time.. First, I want to say that I have some type of OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) that is called Pure O-Purely Obsessional. I am not always suffering with this but it happens in stages and it causes me EXTREME anxiety and confusion. It comes out of nowhere, it will pick on anything and I feel like I am being forced against my will to think these thoughts 24/7 for a couple of months. I become so obssessed with a negative thought (it's usally a question that causes stress and anxiety and can never be assured 100%). Also, it attacks the things that mean the most to me, that's what makes it so bad. When going through my OCD, I don't even feel like myself. I feel so isolated and disconnected from the world, I feel afraid, confused and alone. I lose my self-esteem, feel like nobody has a clue what I'm going through and I feel like a burden to people. I have explained to my best friend and my boyfriend what OCD is and how it affects me & they try to be supportive so at least Im thankful for that. Once a year I will get some type of OCD about something and a lot of tears and craziness go along with that too. I feel like it's ruining me, I hate my brain and overanalyzing and feeling so fearful. Also, I'm so sensitive during this time, it's s difficult to explain. I feel like I'm sane and my brain is trying to make me go insane. How do I help myself?? How can I fight this? Why do I have to second-guess everything and overanalyze and obssess over stuff soo much? it's killing me :-( HELP PLZ!!!!
Quigonquinn Posted October 2, 2010 Posted October 2, 2010 Hey there Lovely326 Sounds like you having a rough time there. I assume you have been diagnosed with Pure O-Purely Obsessional? I only ask as so many people just wiki how they are feeling and run with it which can sometimes make things a lot worse. No offence intended if you have been Being that everyone if different things that work for some may not work for others. Firstly seeing a good psychologist that you are firstly comfortable with, and secondly feel they get you, can be beneficial. The fact that you are aware of these feelings and can differentiate between good times and bad and possible triggers means you will be able to work through the issues. Also seeking a psyc or counsellor doesn't mean your flat out mentally incapable or should in a padded room somewhere. It just means you have reached a point where you can't keep going toward fixing the said issue and you need the advice/brainpower of someone who has spent 5 years studying the human condition. Also reading good books can be very useful. I say good as there is a lot of **** out there full of hype and writing styles that can make you feel like you have more going on than necessary. You mentioned you have good supports, this is great. But, speaking from experience, be careful not to become reliant on them to feel better. Start to learn your own mind and triggers, and begin the journey of self awareness in relation to your feelings. I used to, once I'd come back from the dark side that is , analyse what I thought set me off and what I thought bought me back. I would then delve into my own mind from an outside perspective (sounds dumb I know) and try to work on how to stop it before it started. Easier said than done. Anyway...you may read this post and think to yourself "Dur buddy, thanks for nothing." But hopefully I have been of some assistance. Looks like your problem will resolve itself through awareness and solidifying your self esteem. =D
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