Klina Posted September 28, 2010 Posted September 28, 2010 Recently I have told my closet friend of 3 years that I have romantic feelings for him and he accepted them so now we've decided to go out. Shortly after I told him, I felt no regrets and was glad that I finally decided to confess after having feelings for him for a while. My friend took it well and seems to really be happy with us becoming more than just friends. I know everything sounds like it's going great except for one thing... my cold feet. It's nothing new, it's happened everytime I got into a relationship. No matter how much I liked the guy, I would always freak out and end things before it even started. The longest I've gone is a mere two weeks and I've only been on one date. The last time this happened, I was 15 so I thought it was because I was at an age when a romantic relationship isn't the best thing but now I'm 18 and I'm having the same problem. I also thought it would be different since my friend and I are so close and he's the first guy I've fallen in love with. The same night, on the car ride home from a party, I rested my head against him and held onto his arm while his head was resting on mine. It felt so right, so I don't know what's wrong with me. I love this boy and I don't want to make the same mistakes. I don't want to hurt him like I hurt all those other boys who had no idea I have some serious issues with relationships. I feel like I've made a terrible mistake but at the same time, I'm happy I confessed. We havn't gone out yet and it's only been a couple of days since I told him how I felt. I feel like a wreck and just want to break down. The only thing I've thought of doing is to tell my friend what's going on or at least warn him that I'm a girl who has very unpredictable emotions when it comes to romance and to let him know what he might be getting himself into.
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