Dodgers27 Posted September 27, 2010 Posted September 27, 2010 My ex broke up with me just over 7 months ago. I was an absolute wreck right after, and for about a month and a half. At the end of April she contacted me, and we started talking and seeing each other again. For a while it seemed like there was a chance we could get back together. I wanted to be more outgoing for her, so I tried more foods (picky eater), got along with her friends more, and just generally was more outgoing than I used to be. One three day weekend I stayed over, and we hung out with her friends and just had a really great time. Her friends told me that she told them that weekend that she was thinking about going out with me again. After I went home that Sunday, I didn't hear from her for 2 solid weeks. After that we talked still, and we hung out and did things, but it was harder to see her and talk to her. Even with how hard it was, I still hard feelings for her and wanted to be with her. So I planned to take her to her favorite restaurant and then ask her to be my girlfriend again. The night I asked her to go she said that she'd love to go, but then said "as friends, right?". Despite this I took her anyways, just as friends, and still had a good time anyway. At the end of the night before I went home I asked her if she felt differently about me now than she use to a couple of months ago, and she said yes but she didn't know why. That was about 2 and a half months ago, maybe longer. I have talked to her once since then. The thing that sucks about this before she contacted me again in late April, I had felt like I had gotten over her for the most part. Since then my feelings for her had come back, and she just never felt the same way again, but I still got sucked back in. Now it just seems like I'm stuck in the same place I was a bit after the breakup and I'm just feeling lonely and sad. So many stupid things remind me of her, and I hate it. One of my favorite songs is Caught Up In You by .38 Special, and it was my song for her when we were dating. Now whenever that song comes on my Itunes, I can't even stand to listen to it. There are a bunch of shows that we both liked that make me think of her. There are just random love songs about breakups that make me think of her. All of it isn't just missing her, because I know there are lots of other girls out there, even though I've felt more for her than I have for any other girl, I just know I've felt so much for her and I would love to be with her so much. It's just a huge feeling of being so lonely right now. I felt like I had to talk about this with someone or I was going to go crazy. I know I can eventually feel much, much better about this, I just wish it wasn't taking this long.
witabix Posted September 27, 2010 Posted September 27, 2010 Stick with it, it will pass. You put your head back in the mincer and turned the handle a few more times, just to make sure it hurt? Delete the songs and don't watch the shows. I can't watch Scrubs anymore since dating a nurse. Nor can I listen to Lets Stay Together by Al Green. So I don't watch the show and have removed the song from my PC. Its a tired old cliche but time does heal.
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