TheUnthoughtKnown Posted September 27, 2010 Posted September 27, 2010 Hey LS. I've been posting so much depressing, downtrodden stuff that I was getting really worried bout myself, so I decided, since I'm having a good day, to post something a little more positive So the drinking's stopped. I've gotten back into writing stories, working on my music and stuff. I feel less...depressed, now. I still think about my ex every single day, and there's been some hitches (a family party I had to convince my family not to invite my ex and her parents to; clothes I have at her place that her dad wants me to take away etc, etc,) but I'm now something like 4 months total NC, and 6 months broken up and moving on with my life. I think I may be making some improvements, but I've still got so much anger built up. I've developed this new habit now where I daydream random situations where I get to tell her everything I've been dying to say to her for 6 months now, and its so intense! I feel I'm gettin to the point I'd be willing to punch a small child in the face if it meant I'd get to say even HALF of these things to her! And I hope one day I will be able to. So angers my last part, I suppose. I forgave myself for what happened, made my peace with that and realised that, although I made mistakes, she was the one who threw in the towel, and that meant I cared more, loved her more. Why should I punish myself for that? So hopefully that anger will disapate eventually and I'll begin to move and, hopefully, maybe even meet someone new one of these days There! A post that wasn't too whiny or depressing! Knew I had it in me
br0ken_w0lf Posted September 27, 2010 Posted September 27, 2010 I feel I'm gettin to the point I'd be willing to punch a small child in the face if it meant I'd get to say even HALF of these things to her! And I hope one day I will be able to. One day you hope to tell her these things or one day you hope to punch a small child in the face? Just kidding! Seriously, I haven't seen your other threads (yet) but ones like this are always great to see! Sounds like you made a lot of progress. I'm embarrassed to say that it took me almost 3 years to get to where you are, so good on ya! Just try to keep the momentum and come back and read your post on days which aren't so great. You made a big step!
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