pandagirl Posted September 25, 2010 Posted September 25, 2010 Maybe this is it. Maybe this is why I've all the sudden started crying again. I'm accepting that we're over. Done. No more hope. No thinking about second chances or a reconciliation. No thoughts of being friends. Even if he called me up right now and begged me to take him back, I couldn't. I'm leaving it all behind. I know there is still love between us. A part of me will always love him and hope for his happiness and success. I deeply care about him and believe in him, but I know now he is not the right person for me. And in a way, that is incredibly painful and sad for me to admit to myself -- yet freeing. I will still have moments of sadness and missing him; I will still shed tears for the loss I feel. But it's over. It was over the moment he let me go. I know he loved me the best he could. I know I was the only girl he was ever truly in love with. However, those things alone don't make for a successful relationship. I love him and I know he loves me. But, we're on separate paths right now. I hope they lead to better things for both of us.
Star Gazer Posted September 25, 2010 Posted September 25, 2010 But, we're on separate paths right now. I hope they lead to better things for both of us. Aww, Pand... it will. I promise. (((HUG)))
summerl0vesyou Posted September 25, 2010 Posted September 25, 2010 Maybe this is it. Maybe this is why I've all the sudden started crying again. I'm accepting that we're over. Done. No more hope. No thinking about second chances or a reconciliation. No thoughts of being friends. Even if he called me up right now and begged me to take him back, I couldn't. I'm leaving it all behind. I know there is still love between us. A part of me will always love him and hope for his happiness and success. I deeply care about him and believe in him, but I know now he is not the right person for me. And in a way, that is incredibly painful and sad for me to admit to myself -- yet freeing. I will still have moments of sadness and missing him; I will still shed tears for the loss I feel. But it's over. It was over the moment he let me go. I know he loved me the best he could. I know I was the only girl he was ever truly in love with. However, those things alone don't make for a successful relationship. I love him and I know he loves me. But, we're on separate paths right now. I hope they lead to better things for both of us. *nods* I can relate to this. I know exactly what you mean. for me, its been almost 10 mths since the official breakup, and 4-5 mths since we saw each other last and said it was over for good. you really do come to a point where it sinks in. you're crying because you know that you are facing a new life. change is scary. especially when its without the one you held on to so tightly for support and dreamt of being with. pretty much everything you said, are things Ive said to myself. I wish you the best of luck. the times ahead will be trying but if you stay on the right path, youll get there and youll end up meeting someone worth your love someday<3 you're doing good right now. its okay if you get sad or mad, but right now you are being non-hateful and accepting which is great. wont it be nice when its thata way, all the time?
Author pandagirl Posted September 25, 2010 Author Posted September 25, 2010 (edited) Aww, Pand... it will. I promise. (((HUG))) Aw, thanks! I know it will be fine, it's just... I'm such a softie! We weren't supposed to only spend 10 months of our lives together. Out of those months, we probably only were together a total of 9-10 weeks. I wanted more time with him. But this is the way it happened. *nods* I can relate to this. I know exactly what you mean. for me, its been almost 10 mths since the official breakup, and 4-5 mths since we saw each other last and said it was over for good. you really do come to a point where it sinks in. you're crying because you know that you are facing a new life. change is scary. especially when its without the one you held on to so tightly for support and dreamt of being with. pretty much everything you said, are things Ive said to myself. I wish you the best of luck. the times ahead will be trying but if you stay on the right path, youll get there and youll end up meeting someone worth your love someday<3 you're doing good right now. its okay if you get sad or mad, but right now you are being non-hateful and accepting which is great. wont it be nice when its thata way, all the time? haha, yes! The hard part is facing life without him in it. Actually coming to terms with that is really profound. It's like you go from thinking you might get back together someday, to thinking about when/if you should call him or if he will call you, to thinking: "Wait, this is it. There is nothing more. It's over." It does leave that hole in your heart. So weird how you can go from being the most important person in someone's life, to becoming strangers. Edited September 25, 2010 by pandagirl
summerl0vesyou Posted September 25, 2010 Posted September 25, 2010 haha, yes! The hard part is facing life without him in it. Actually coming to terms with that is really profound. It's like you go from thinking you might get back together someday, to thinking about when/if you should call him or if he will call you, to thinking: "Wait, this is it. There is nothing more. It's over." It does leave that hole in your heart. So weird how you can go from being the most important person in someone's life, to becoming strangers. Yeah...I kinda float between all of those things still. which is kinda dumb because hes made it perfectly clear and has said manyyy times that he isnt coming back. it really is sad when you are that close to someone and you really think its a tight bond, and then you become so far apart that you dont even know each other anymore... truly thats the worst part, is the change. all of the change. Change in closeness, change in the future.. some days are harder than others but when you get that close, its SO hard to separate. your head knows you are apart, but your heart? your soul? they just cry. its much harder to accept it in terms of "feelings" than it is to accept in terms of "knowing"
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