cb9343 Posted September 21, 2010 Posted September 21, 2010 This is the third time when things got rough with my ex he ran and did it over the phone.. I am forcing myself to get outside to talk with people and remember that there are two people in a relationship. i am putting alot of blame on myself but there were two of us.. We both messed up and he is at a different point then i am! i have a career a son and own my own place.. he lives with his cousin making minimum wage and at 32 joined the reserves. which is what he has always dreamed of and i am proud of him.. I just think he needs to figure out how it is to be alone and to cope. he use to cope with drugs and my counselor even said that when you get into that stuff the only way you cope is by using and when you stop your years behind and have a hard time coping.. The way he copes is by running when things get tough... i have myself and my son to think about i really hope that the reserves are a good place for him and he can learn how to handle life... i know i will use this time as positive as i can.. i know i will mess up from time to time and get said but i have that little boy to role model for.. i have to be strong for him and become a stronger person adn a little less needy.. i have done so much on m yown i am not sure why i am so needy... i have a raised a three year old on my own... there is a light i am starting to see the glimpse of it..
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