florence of suburbia Posted September 23, 2010 Posted September 23, 2010 I appreciate the attempt to boost my self-esteem, but, I know I am not a "work of art" physically or mentally. And what's keeping me from being like the rest of society is, partially, my extreme anxiety. Also, I'm rejecting who I am because I don't like my identity. It's similiar to someone having a talent for singing, but having no desire to sing. Just because it's there, doesn't mean it should be lauded. That might seem like a general statement, but that was about me more than anything. You can eventually fix mistakes in machines with enough effort, organic beings aren't so easily healed. I understand you're feeling down on yourself, but you're turning all of your anger inward and a good deal of that is probably misplaced. Cut yourself some slack.
Author TwilightSky Posted September 23, 2010 Author Posted September 23, 2010 I understand you're feeling down on yourself, but you're turning all of your anger inward and a good deal of that is probably misplaced. Cut yourself some slack. I somewhat doubt that. But, I suppose there isn't much left to say about my particular case, is there? No, just since I got back home Yeah, it's not really any of my business, didn't meant to pry.
florence of suburbia Posted September 23, 2010 Posted September 23, 2010 I somewhat doubt that. But, I suppose there isn't much left to say about my particular case, is there? Seems to me there's plenty to say. Is your anxiety clinical? Have you tried anything to treat it? If you could change one thing about your life, what would it be?
skydiveaddict Posted September 23, 2010 Posted September 23, 2010 You're not prying. I meant since I got home from the war
Author TwilightSky Posted September 23, 2010 Author Posted September 23, 2010 Seems to me there's plenty to say. Is your anxiety clinical? Have you tried anything to treat it? If you could change one thing about your life, what would it be? The one psych I had said I had was in the "top 10" patients for anxiety that he's seen. I've tried plenty to treat it, all the evidence suggests I am a hopeless case. Change one thing about my life? Don't know, as there is no one thing that is going to drastically improve my life. Too flawed to care about one thing.
laRubiaBonita Posted September 23, 2010 Posted September 23, 2010 so basically you are just going to listen to what one dr. had to say? what if that dr. only ever had 10 patients? you really do not seem to interested in changing or getting "better"- although if have fears of what that might mean, that is understandable, with 'health' and not being 'sick' come responsibilities and obviously whatever you are currently doing is not helping, so change.
Author TwilightSky Posted September 23, 2010 Author Posted September 23, 2010 so basically you are just going to listen to what one dr. had to say? what if that dr. only ever had 10 patients? you really do not seem to interested in changing or getting "better"- although if have fears of what that might mean, that is understandable, with 'health' and not being 'sick' come responsibilities and obviously whatever you are currently doing is not helping, so change. He's been in practice for a long time, from what I remember. The thing is, I've attempted to "get better" time and time again. The end result is the same. No medications or string of positive thoughts have helped me. No one seems to "get it." Well, at least, very few do.
quankanne Posted September 23, 2010 Posted September 23, 2010 am sorry to hear about the extreme anxiety problems – that must really suck ... still, I'm going to be the Pollyanna popping up on the page: Just give up one negative thought for a positive one. I don't care if it's "well, at least I'm good about bathing every day, no matter what," just come up with something you can use to condition yourself to finding positive things about yourself. look, being an chubby, 40-something woman who has always found herself the "little sister" in every relationship, I can empathize how easy it is to believe the worst of yourself. At some point though, you realize that you are more than others' not-so-flattering perception of you, and you start to examing just who you are. In my case, I think because I'm a relatively calm person, others respond to it and feel a certain sense of peace. A part of me screams "oh, you're being a braggart" (a trait I hate), but empirically speaking, there's huge support for this theory because of how people respond to me IRL. And it's something that makes me feel good, because I know what it means to me to have someone in my life who makes things right simply because they exist ... again, there's something about you that at 25, you're not going to see because you're still on that journey of self-discovery and you reject anything positive you may come up with about yourself. But eventually, the truth is going to slap you upside the head: You're not as horrid as you suspect
Author TwilightSky Posted September 24, 2010 Author Posted September 24, 2010 Likewise, sorry to hear about your relationship issues. So has your life gotten better once you passed the 25 year mark? Anyway, I think its my perception of myself that is the most critical, that I know of I guess. Well, it's good to know I'm not as horrid as I suspect!
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