TheUnthoughtKnown Posted September 19, 2010 Posted September 19, 2010 Okay, so I had stopped drinking so excessively coz it was worrying my family and friends and it wasn't doing me any good, wasn't helping me get over my ex. So I had stopped, and I have been off it for over a week now. Except last night I was taken to hospital. Apparently now I may have some kind of liver disease. F*ck. Too late... Goddamn, how did things get so out of hand? I thought I was doing well but then I kept tripping up, be it looking at pictures or allowing myself to remember things and eventually I just lapsed and used drink to forget about her... This has made me even angrier: at her, at myself, at everything for leading me to this. I wish to God I'd never even met this girl. What the hell is it that has driven me to this?? This is madness!! What makes us do these things? To me, this is as much wanting to find out about myself and the things in my life that make me tick and make me do stupid things as it is wanting to find out why we ended. Guess they're both tied in...
leftfield Posted September 20, 2010 Posted September 20, 2010 (edited) OK, so the drinking didn't help you get over your ex. I learned that lesson as well. It actually makes it worse in the end because alcohol makes you depressed doesn't it. It's good that you stopped. Now you have a liver problem, so deal with that and focus on getting better. You've punished yourself enough already, so don't go getting angry and compounding the problem. Like the alcohol, the anger will eat you up inside. So let that go as well, quit it. You've had to suffer the pain of a breakup, now the pain of a liver problem. Give yourself a break and relax. Anger is like emotional alcohol. It's funny how alcohol makes people angry huh? Chill out, calm down, drink the emotional equivalent of herbal tea until you heal your liver and your broken heart. Get well soon. Edited September 20, 2010 by leftfield typo
Faruiza Posted September 20, 2010 Posted September 20, 2010 It is natural you went all self destructive - when we're in love and in a good relationship, we feel all bouncy and happy and confident to do things. Take that away and it can make you feel like you're the opposite of those things. My advice to you is that it is not too late to learn a lesson. The lesson is you have to be nice to yourself - show some love and care to your body and mind. Would you treat someone you loved like you've treated yourself? Maybe not even a cat you didn't like would get this lack of love and care from you. So - start with health and then look at all the other things you like, be it nature, hobbies, or friends. Anyway, sometimes it can feel like there's this huge burden, I understand. The best you can do is allow a peaceful acceptance to come into your heart and take one day at a time. All the best to you. Take care.
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